Buried Feelings About God

This blog has been so hard to write. I just haven't known what to say.

It's been a crazy time for me. I knew surgery would be interesting, I didn't expect it to wipe me out the way it did. It wasn't just that there was more pain, it was that I was downright exhausted too.

This month, our roof started leaking. I personally, associate the roof with God, higher self, or other crown chakra energy. Of course, being me, I had to look at what was going on.

Water leaks often can be associated with grief or tears. Did I have a lot of grief with God? I didn't really know. I was trying to address it, did energy work on the home and self. It seemed to get cleared and yet, it leaked again.

Then I did a technique from Rachel Archelaus. She teaches Intuitive Art, which is another way to find out what is going on when you just can't find the answers looking straight on.

I was doing this process for issues with reading my scriptures. Why wasn't I reading? My results were interesting. There was some anger, some disconnect, and way over on the side, there was a big ball of sadness. There is that sadness idea again.

I took to healing. Why was I angry? Why was I sad? I have been dealing with a lot of layers but I want to tell you about one.

I was promised in three different blessings that I would heal quickly. A week ago, as of writing this, I was told that in a week I would be able to be off of the crutches, still using the brace. Well, here I am, not only am I still on the crutches, but a spider scare caused me to jerk my knee into a place of great pain so I couldn't put any weight on my leg for a while.

I lost it. I cried about broken promises and feeling betrayed. Promises of a sweetheart. Promises of healing, and it's not going so fast. Promises of a “beautiful home with the necessities of life”. I have so many promises given to me in priesthood blessings that aren't coming true that I feel anger and betrayal. This is showing up in this intuitive art, in my home leak, and in this overall depression I have had in the last little while.

It's hard to admit that I have been angry and felt hurt and betrayed by God. No wonder I haven't wanted to read scriptures and I have not had much desire to return to church when I do get better. I love the scriptures and I love church and I believe it to be true but there are all these hurt feelings.

With awareness comes healing. Now I know where to heal the deepest hurts. I know what I am really feeling so I can really deal with it.

Do you have similar things going on in your life? Feelings you just can't figure out. Maybe you have signs coming at you in your body, your home, or even through different intuitive methods. Are you giving yourself permission to receive the messages and go deep into healing? I sure hope so. If you need help, I'm super happy to help you come to a place of peace.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Motivation, Do You Have It?

I have kind of become obsessed with something I just learned. I have shared it on YouTube, on my FB page, with friends, and in multiple comments in various places. It has been this weird key for me that I wouldn't have expected, so I am sharing wherever I can, including here.

You know how so many different personality profiling things put you into groups of four? I recently did one I hadn't done before. For the most part, it was similar information but there were some differences. It was more about how they are in business and more importantly what their key motivator is.

There is one group that Merilyn calls the VisionMaker. They are the people that set goals and visions and that's enough to motivate them. They have the drive to go after what they want.

In consideration of homes, I don't know if they would even come to a blog like mine. They would set a goal, create a vision of what they want their home to look like and go after it. I guess if they were wounded and needed help remembering who they are, they could end up here.

I'm guessing in terms of manifesting, they would take to vision boards and other forms of vision creation like a fish to water. There are so many manifesting tools that are designed to help one create a vision. If you were motivated by vision, then it makes sense that once you knew what you wanted your life to be, you'd go after it. These would also be the people that emphasize inspired action. They may or may not even think of it as manifesting.

The next group is the PassionMaker. They are the people that get really excited about what they are doing and that excitement is enough to keep them going. That passion is what motivates them.

In homes, they very easily could end up here. Easily distracted and not wanting to do things if they aren't fun or they haven't found a passion for keeping their homes in good order. Yeah, I could totally see that they would be drawn to another way to approach the house, always seeking a passion for it. They may not know that's what they are seeking. If they can find their passion, their home would get and stay in order.

In manifesting, it makes sense that they would love experiential manifesting techniques. The ones where you bring in as many senses while they create. Anything and everything to get them excited about what they want to manifest. These would be the people that do amazing at manifesting when they tune into how their dreams make them feel. If they can stir up the passion, then they will go for their manifesting dreams. I can think of a number of manifesting teachers that use this style and they are doing amazing things in their lives.

The next group is called the HeartMaker. They are motivated by meaning and purpose. If they can find a meaning in what they are doing, they'll keep going.

Many of these types are naturally organized, often OCD in their perfectionism. They wouldn't usually be drawn to my work because of the organizing ideas I may or may not present. They would be drawn to the meaning I could help them find, or tips for helping them find or unlock their purpose. For a long time, I thought this was the way to be, always seeking meaning and purpose for life. Looking back, I know I wasn't motivated by it, I was just doing what I thought was the way to success.

In manifesting, they are people that need to really get their why behind their manifesting. It's not enough for them to get a dream. It's not enough for them to get excited. They are the ones that have to see a greater purpose in their manifesting.

Before I tell you about the fourth type, let me say that there is nothing wrong with any of the four types. All types of people need to get a vision, find some passion, and create meaning. We all need all four motivators in our lives. The difference is, a VisionMaker with passion and no vision won't get far. A PassionMaker can have meaning and vision but without that passion, they'll be easily distracted.

I have stopped before mentioning the fourth type because I wanted to talk a bit about how almost all, if not all of the manifesting tools I have ever learned and all of the organizing and decluttering information seems to approach the situation from one of these three ways. I have rarely heard of the fourth being mentioned. Maybe a little in homes, but I seriously can't think of one manifesting tool that really addresses or asks questions that would help the fourth motivation type. I know because this is my type.

I am a PeaceMaker. I'm motivated by peace and ease. I want things to be as easy as possible. I also am always trying to find ways to have peace. Sometimes parenting is really hard because I have 6 kids and they are not all motivated by this peace thing, in fact, I'm not sure any of them are.

A PeaceMaker could definitely end up on a blog like this. Sure they'll want their home clean but they may not realize what they really want is the peace and ease that comes with a clean and organized home. They'll be interested in the home healing because of the peaceful energy that it could bring to the home. They'll hope that having a clean home would help their families to be more peaceful. They might think, “If we have less stuff, the kids will get along better.”

In manifesting, well I'm experimenting with that one. I know that when I asked myself a powerful question it changed my life. “How can I bring more peace to the world?” For the first time in my life, I was motivated to really, and I mean really, get clear about my message. I was motivated to act on the information I was learning and not stay in that procrastination phase of research. The idea that something I say or do could bring peace to someone's life and/or create ease for them is so powerful. So far, every time I have asked myself the question, even writing about it here, I get tears in my eyes. It makes my soul so happy. The results have been this constant little voice in my head, what can we do next to create peace? Is there a video to make? A blog to write? A FB post? What can we do to spread peace? The sessions I was putting off got done really fast because I might, just might be able to give my clients a little peace.

I'm thinking if that question was able to get me to a place where I was moving forward in a new way in my business, what could it do for manifesting in general? What if I asked questions that got me to see the ease and peace that would come from my manifesting? When I asked myself about my book, the thought came, “Well, I would definitely have more peace without that book nagging me.” After that, I actually started working on my book, something I've been saying I would do for a long time. If I could add an element of ease, I'm sure I would finish writing.

I am experimenting with questions designed to get me in touch with peace and ease. I am experimenting in how I can bring peace into my pocketbook. How I can have peace in my relationships. Not just desiring it, I've always desired it, but now actively asking specifically about ease and peace, knowing that's what motivates me.

Did you know that I have a mantra that always seems to center me with myself? I have had it for a while and now it's kind of ironic.

I am the empress of peace, daughter of deity, heir to the throne of the most high.

Enough about me, what about you? Did you see a possible motivation for you? Maybe you can see some of your loved ones might have a different motivation than you. If you want to really learn more about the four types, you can go to https://www.merilyn.com/WowArchetypeQuiz. It's not an affiliate. It's just something I want to share because it has been so profound in my life. At the time of writing this, after you take the quiz, you'll get offered a free class to learn about all of the types. It's so worth it.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Accentuate the Positive

My dear friends,

Things have been so hard lately. I haven't been able to do so much and it's been so discouraging. I have felt very much like a fraud.

On November 8th, I had an accident at work. Because it's worker's comp, it has been taking a long time to get anywhere. A month after the accident, I had the official diagnosis. The ligament broke away from the bone and there was a hairline fracture. I broke my knee and surgery is required.

I had an aha tonight that was quite interesting. I was journaling a year in review. I was writing about my job and the toll it was taking on me and then about my accident. I mentioned that I broke my knee and it was my soul screaming “you need a break.” Is it a surprise I broke my knee? I got a physical break in my knee and it's forced me to take it really easy.

Emotionally, this has been crazy. Unable to carry anything, for my hands are occupied with crutches. Unable to do my own laundry. I can't even take a shower by myself. This has been hard.

One of the hardest parts has been an absolute frustration with the state of my home and my feelings of inability to do anything about it. I have literally felt like I couldn't do anything, which of course is an absolute that isn't true. I have been limited but there are still things I can do.

How many times do we say absolutes like that? How many times do we prevent ourselves from achieving anything because we have gone into a negative absolute?

I learned a game called “What If Up” and the point is to spiral up not down. Instead of going down the what-if cycle of despair, you consciously choose to go up. What if I was so powerful I could ask and my home would be cleaned? What if the worker's comp approved surgery so fast and I get my surgery right away? What if my home were as peaceful as I desire it to be?

I know the pieces of my life have been falling into place. It's been an interesting couple of weeks watching it happen. I desired to get my children pajamas for Christmas and the way was provided. They finally called for my son's testing. I have been led to some incredible resources to help me succeed and be ME. All of this from changing my perspective.

It started like this. I was frustrated and telling my friend that it felt like things were falling apart. I then gave myself permission to have things fall apart. Well, when I do that, I follow with a positive. I give myself permission for things to come together. I give myself permission for things to fall into place. When I did that there was so much energy shifting and it was the next day that I got the means to buy pajamas and the call about testing. When I repeated some clearings about things coming together was when other things synchronistically showed up.

Imagine your life if you played what up games or gave yourself permission for positive things to happen!

Things still aren't perfect for me but I'm sure doing my best to focus on the positives. My life is coming together and I have peace in my life. What about you?

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

P.S. Happy New Year!

Intuitive Coach and Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.