Embracing the Feelings

Woohoo, two weeks in a row. I must be on a roll!

I am nervoucited. I am teaching my first HomeVision course this week. It’s a 3-week class starting on Thursday, Aug 27. (I would love to see you there)

I know that the information is powerful. I know that the people who have used the information I am teaching have had some pretty profound results. I know I am an expert in this field. For those reasons, I am excited.

Then comes the doubt which makes me nervous. Do you do that? Do you doubt your gifts and expertise? What if no one comes? What if they don’t like me? What if they think it was a waste of their money, even though it is only $27? All of the what-ifs come in. I know we all do this to some degree or another.

Usually, or at least in the past, when the what-if would come, I would try to avoid it. Maybe I would even try to release it. I might find success and I might not.

One of the reasons it is not successful is because I am approaching it from a place of resistance. What we resist persists. I’m fighting the beliefs and fears. Because I am fighting them and wanting to change them out of fear, they persist.

There is a fun little trick that takes the wind right out of their sails. Embrace them, love them.

To embrace them, we start by acknowledging them. “I have this fear. I am afraid of looking like a fool.” Once I have acknowledged what it is, it has already lost a piece of its power. It is no longer hidden. 

Then we say “I am embracing this. I feel this. In fact, I want to feel it bigger than this. I grow this fear. I really feel into this fear.” That takes out so much more power. We are no longer resisting. We are moving into it. We are becoming one with it. All it wants is to be felt and known. 

After that comes the magic step. “I love this. I love this fear of looking like a fool.” We repeat the steps. Acknowledge beliefs and feelings. Embrace them. Grow them. Love them. 

After a while, you won’t even be able to find the feelings anymore. The power of love just takes them completely away. We didn’t resist, it doesn’t persist.

One key is to approach this as a resting opportunity, not a changing opportunity. Sometimes things don’t completely change. The circumstances may not. My mother will always be dead but the feelings can go, they can change, I can be at peace.

The point of embracing is not to change. It is to come to a place of peace. I don’t go into my feelings wanting them to go away. When I do, they take longer to release. I need to go in with the intent to be at peace. Listen to my feelings and thoughts, love them for what they are, and allow myself to be peace. The fact that feelings usually leave is a bonus.

I hope you found this extra helpful.

If you want to be a part of the HomeVision program, here is the link. There are going to be replays so even if you can’t make it to the live classes, that’s ok.

Lots of love,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Buried Feelings About God

This blog has been so hard to write. I just haven't known what to say.

It's been a crazy time for me. I knew surgery would be interesting, I didn't expect it to wipe me out the way it did. It wasn't just that there was more pain, it was that I was downright exhausted too.

This month, our roof started leaking. I personally, associate the roof with God, higher self, or other crown chakra energy. Of course, being me, I had to look at what was going on.

Water leaks often can be associated with grief or tears. Did I have a lot of grief with God? I didn't really know. I was trying to address it, did energy work on the home and self. It seemed to get cleared and yet, it leaked again.

Then I did a technique from Rachel Archelaus. She teaches Intuitive Art, which is another way to find out what is going on when you just can't find the answers looking straight on.

I was doing this process for issues with reading my scriptures. Why wasn't I reading? My results were interesting. There was some anger, some disconnect, and way over on the side, there was a big ball of sadness. There is that sadness idea again.

I took to healing. Why was I angry? Why was I sad? I have been dealing with a lot of layers but I want to tell you about one.

I was promised in three different blessings that I would heal quickly. A week ago, as of writing this, I was told that in a week I would be able to be off of the crutches, still using the brace. Well, here I am, not only am I still on the crutches, but a spider scare caused me to jerk my knee into a place of great pain so I couldn't put any weight on my leg for a while.

I lost it. I cried about broken promises and feeling betrayed. Promises of a sweetheart. Promises of healing, and it's not going so fast. Promises of a “beautiful home with the necessities of life”. I have so many promises given to me in priesthood blessings that aren't coming true that I feel anger and betrayal. This is showing up in this intuitive art, in my home leak, and in this overall depression I have had in the last little while.

It's hard to admit that I have been angry and felt hurt and betrayed by God. No wonder I haven't wanted to read scriptures and I have not had much desire to return to church when I do get better. I love the scriptures and I love church and I believe it to be true but there are all these hurt feelings.

With awareness comes healing. Now I know where to heal the deepest hurts. I know what I am really feeling so I can really deal with it.

Do you have similar things going on in your life? Feelings you just can't figure out. Maybe you have signs coming at you in your body, your home, or even through different intuitive methods. Are you giving yourself permission to receive the messages and go deep into healing? I sure hope so. If you need help, I'm super happy to help you come to a place of peace.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Choices

Today, I want to talk about choices. I think sometimes we forget that we can choose.

Yesterday, I was getting ready for a meeting. I had been feeling anxious about the meeting because of some earlier experiences with this person.

I decided it was time to change things. I asked myself some questions like this. What am I feeling? Often, we just say we feel angry when really, we are feeling sad and that anger is acting as protection. Maybe we are afraid, and the anger is once again a secondary emotion. Getting to the bottom of our feelings can really help us to get through this. The funny thing for me this time is that I had healed the underlying feelings and was just left with this feeling of defensiveness. Identifying defensiveness allowed me to choose the next step.

Do I want to stay defensive? My answer was no. Amazing that for me, that was all it took. I felt myself relax. Sometimes, our answer is yes, or in another situation, I got half as my answer. I was able to let go of the half and allowed myself to keep the other half. Too often, we don't allow ourselves to stay angry if we want to. If we allow ourselves to stay in a negative emotion if that's what we desire, we'll actually be ready to let it go easier and faster. Feelings aren't bad, we all feel all kinds of things. It is what we do while we are feeling that way that is bad. If I choose to journal my feelings, that's a healthy expression. If I choose to harm another, that's an unhealthy expression. The feeling was never the problem so if you feel like staying in a negative feeling, then do it for a while.

After I let go of the feeling of defensive, I asked myself what I wanted to feel instead. I think this is an important step. We have a habit of going to certain feelings but if we can give our subconscious a feeling to seek, we'll go there instead. Yesterday, I chose curiosity. Instead of feeling defensive that her ideas would not work for me, I chose to be curious about her ideas. This allowed me to stay open to insight that could add to her ideas and make them work for both of us. In the end, it was an incredible meeting and I felt better without that defensiveness hanging around.

I'm inviting you to try it. In fact, let's bring this into the home for an experiment. Pick one area of your home that is bugging you. Overwhelm? Fear? Define the feelings you feel about that area. Now that you have it defined, ask yourself if you would like to stay feeling that way. If you get a no, then notice how much releases. If it isn't releasing, then try this phrase, “I am feeling this fully, and completely and then I release it completely.” Once you have the feeling gone, ask yourself what you would like to feel instead. Follow with saying, “I feel _____ about this.” You can also ask, “Why do I feel ____ about this?” Like my choice to feel curious, I could say, “I feel curious about this,” or, “Why do I feel curious about this?”

How did it go? I would love to hear from you so go ahead and leave a comment below!

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

House Intuitive

Healing homes and the people who love them.

It's About That Feeling

What do you want to feel in your home?

For me, the answer is easy. I have thought years about what I want my home to feel like. For the longest time, I didn't know how to describe it. I remember going into other people's houses and feeling something. I loved being there and I knew that I wanted that in my home.

As I have worked with different people, I've noticed that we all want something from our homes. Some people are looking for a peaceful haven, some are looking for an escape from the world, others are looking for a place of gathering and family.

As you are deciding what you want your home to be, think about these things. Do you want your entire home to feel one way? For me, this is the case. I want people to walk into my home and feel a peace that they want to feel in their homes. Maybe you want a home that has a different feeling depending on the room. Maybe you want the family room to feel fun and the bedroom to feel restful.

Close your eyes and imagine you're looking at your ideal home. It can be the home you are living in, or it can be that dream home you will have someday. Take a deep breath and feel the joy of knowing that is your home and it's just right for you.

Now, walk through the front door. What do you feel as you walk in? Write the word or words that best describe that feeling. Look around and take it in, the feeling and any details you notice. Are there certain colors you need to note? Certain shapes, smells, etc. Are there people there or are you alone? Write it all down because there is a message in each little detail that you become aware of.

After a while in this first room, walk through each room of the house. Note the same things. First, note the feeling and then note the details. Write them all down.

If this is the home you are living in, what can you do right now to bring that feeling into each room? Can you bring the colors in, the smells, the shapes? What is the next step to creating the home you want?

If this was your dream home, what can you do to bring those feelings into the place where you are now? We need to surround ourselves with those feelings now if we want to be aligned with those feelings when we move in. Can we use some of those colors and smells in our current place? Are there things we own that don't fit that feeling? Are there things we need to add to bring in those feelings? What is your next step?

Here is an assignment for you. Every day imagine your home. Tune into those feelings again. Follow it up by asking yourself, “What would it take to bring this feeling into my home?” When you get an answer, act on it.

Feel free to review last week's post about What Would It Take.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

House Intuitive

Healing homes and the people who love them.

Cleansing Our Belongings

Today, I want to share a decluttering and shopping tip.

You already know that our homes hold energy, or at least you do if you have been following my posts. Our stuff also holds energy. There are memories, emotions, and a few other things that can be found in our things. Each item also contains an energetic marker of the person who owns it.

Here's what I like to do. As I am giving my things away, I ask a prayer that all of my energy be removed. My ownership essence, my emotions, etc. I want that item to move on to the next person feeling clean and clear. Like an open slate of possibilities. I do the same thing when I bring things in, especially if they have been second-hand items.

I remember as I would pass clothes on from one boy to another, a few things would happen. One, I couldn't remember if I had passed it on. Another, the younger boy would struggle to own it even if he liked it.

One day, early in my energy days, I decided to ask that the essence of the older boy be removed from the clothes and the essence of the younger boy be added. I was pleasantly surprised when I could easily remember that the shirt had been passed along. It no longer felt like the older boys shirt. My younger boy no longer had a problem wearing it. It was a fun experiment that has impacted our life.

When my youngest was brand new to this world, he was placed in his car seat for the first time. We were ready to leave the hospital and like most babies, he didn't like it. I took him back out and said a little prayer over his car seat. We asked that any negative energy be cleared away and that a bit of my essence be placed in the car seat so he'd feel like he was with me. We placed him back in and he was peacefully content.

What you can do with energy is amazing and often that simple.

Another way you can use this technique is if you struggle to let something go. A friend told me that she had an old beat up clown that she knows doesn't bring her joy, but she just can't let it go. There is something energetically holding onto her. This is a case in which asking the clown to be cleared of all of her energy would be very beneficial. Her sense of ownership would be removed which would allow her to let it go.

If you are really struggling with letting things go, you can ask that angels be sent through your stuff with the purpose of cleaning out your essence from anything that wouldn't bring you joy. If you would rather not work with angels, you could ask that your soul or higher self remove your energy from all the things that don't bring you joy. Then when you take that item in your hand, you will no longer feel the connection you once had. It would become a lot easier to let it go.

There are many ways you can use a tip like this. Open your mind and ask yourself, what else is possible.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the people who love them.

Soulda Woulda Coulda

I often ask myself the following question, "What can I do in my home to help shift the energy of <insert current dilemma here>?" Lately, every time I ask—no matter what the subject—I got the same response, "Sort the dishes."

The dishes were boxes of dishes up in a closet. They were dishes I used in my marriage. Nearly 11 years ago, they got packed away. First, we moved in with my in-laws. Then my ex and I were separated for a bit while he lived with his family and I lived with mine. After that, we got back together but this time living with my mom. Finally, we separated for good and I continued to live with my mom. During the divorce process, we sorted and divided them; otherwise, these dishes have remained in boxes for years.

I delayed this process for a few months. Here's my main thought, "If I sort these and give some away, then I am admitting that I will never have my own place, that I will be here forever." This isn't logical but often the things that keep us from doing what we know is best isn't logical.

Recently, I pulled them out. The first two boxes weren't so bad. It was kind of fun. I found some things that we could use now, some things that I will keep at least for now, and some that I am donating. Pretty simple and it wasn't so bad.

Then came the third box. It's silly that a casserole dish brought tears to my eyes. It represented the life that could have been. It unlocked grief that I hadn't addressed. There was the failed marriage and although we had problems, I did love him. There were the guys that although I tried to let go, I still held on.

I compared it to other parts of my life. The life I could have had if I would have taken care of my body. The life I could have had if I had gone to that one school. The life I could have had if I hadn't gotten pregnant. It goes on. All of the things I should have done, could have done, and would have done. This alternate life that a part of me was still holding onto. I had dreams and things went according to a different plan. In the end, maybe I'll see it was a better plan. 😊

To let go of the guys, I imagined them to be kites and I simply let go of the strings. I can't tell you how much lighter I felt. I then traced it back to childhood. I went to a time when I had to give up some favorite clothes because they didn't fit. I wanted to hold on then, and in a way I did. After that was healed, I would look for other areas this idea applied such as my weight, money, etc. Each place that an emotional trigger occurred, I did more healing. I even did some premortal work to clear some things from before I was born.

Imagine the life I can create now by letting go of the life that could have been. Imagine the possibilities of what I can create. Are you holding onto what could have been? What patterns can you find in your stuff? Even if you don't have a lot, I bet you can find a pattern. You might even find healing like I have.

Lots of love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Make Me Small

Years ago, early in my decluttering process, I found myself with about a week's worth of clothes in the closet that took up about 6 inches of space. My husband at the time had clothes that took up about a yard of space. I was getting rid of nearly anything I had control of, which meant my clothes were easy to send away. Why?

There are different causes of what I would refer to as extreme clutter. Nearly everyone who hasn't decluttered has things they can let go of. Those people who easily let go of things don't look at those few things as clutter. Clutter happens when you have too much stuff or too little space. It's really when you don't have a home for everything, and you can't find what you need.

My children were young. We were getting ready to have my 5th child. I had a teenager and three little people 4 years old and younger. We lived in a two-bedroom apartment. We had dressers in the front room. We had a three-month supply of food storage in boxes lining our dining room. We squeezed multiple beds and a crib in one room. I was a space utilizing queen. I had the kind of clutter that came from too little space.

I started the FlyLady system. I was cleaning out whatever I could. I couldn't touch the husband's clothes, so I would take care of mine. Even with all my efforts, I heard over and over that we had too much stuff. It hurt so much because I knew I was doing my best and the real problem was the size of our place.

It's funny looking back. I didn't get each babies clothes down to a week's worth, just my own. I talked my teenage son into going down to 30 t-shirts. I encouraged my husband to weed out a few of his clothes. It was mine that had to go. I was trying to make sure I didn't take up too much space. I was making ME small.

Internally, it was okay for those wonderful kids to have what they needed. They needed the space. They needed the clothes. They deserved to take up space, but I didn't. My decluttering efforts were about what I could get rid of to take up very little space. It played out in life.

I stopped playing the piano so I wouldn't compete with my husband. I stopped trusting my intuition. I was the one who did the budget and I'd make sure he had money to spend on whatever he wanted, no matter how little we had. I'd occasionally give myself some spending money and then spend it all on him and the kids. By the end of my marriage, I didn't know who I was. I decluttered myself away and tried to take up as little space in the world as I could.

This kind of decluttering isn't healthy. This mindset isn't healthy.

As I've healed, there have been stages of healing. In the last 9 years, I've lived in the same place with my mom. I went from living in a family room without a door to having my own room with a door. I didn't think I was worth my own space 9 years ago. Now, I created boundaries and declared to myself that I deserved a room of my own. It's been a process to get where I am today, one of great healing.

I'm no longer looking for what to get rid of. I'm no longer trying to make myself as small as possible. I'm looking for joy. Keeping what brings joy. Surrounding myself with joyful things. I'm finding ways to let my light out and grow. I laugh more than I ever remember laughing in my life.

Things aren't perfect. I still have some things to go through, things to declutter and beliefs to sort through. I know that there will be great healing in the process. It's okay to be where I am because I can see how really far I have come.

Lots of love from my heart to yours,

Michele

The Deep Pit

A few months ago, I went on a big kick to get my bedroom in order. I was decluttering and reorganizing. It felt great to get it all done. My main intention during the process was to actually declutter everything in my room.

A little background, I live with my mom so the only space I have complete control over is my room. Most of my own personal stuff is in that room. So, for me to declutter my room meant I was decluttering most of my stuff.

Some of the things were hard to get through and I learned a lot about myself. Then, I was done. I was able to move onto the downstairs bathroom which was another room that was mostly my stuff. After that, I just seemed to have no energy to face anything in the house.

That led me into a weird funk that actually affected my whole life. I didn't want to face anything outside of the safety of my own room. I wasn't spending all my time in my room. I just wasn't doing cleaning anywhere in the house. I wasn't making my YouTube videos, I wasn't working in my business at all, and I wasn't enjoying life. I was in a pit.

One of the things I teach is that the patterns in our homes are linked to the patterns in our lives. That means that if I want to switch the energy in my life, one tool is doing something different in my home. If I want to switch the energy in my home, I can change something in some area of my life. 

I had the awareness that with my current room layout, I felt like I was sleeping in a pit. Huh? That was exactly how life felt. What could I do about it?

I asked the questions; I got an answer. I needed to rearrange my room.

It hadn't been that long. Was I wrong in my room placement before? No!

Before, my intent was to declutter. For me, knowing I had to move my bed to a certain spot was an encouragement to declutter what was in the way. I needed that push and that was the motivation for the room layout.

I've also learned some interesting things. I hadn't fully cleared the energy from a situation with my neighbors. Much of the situation happened with my bed in the same place and I often stressed, cried, and unloaded in prayer while in my bed. That energy was still hanging around. I was able to finish clearing my home and my heart from that situation.

Now, it's time to rearrange again. This time my intention is getting myself out of the pit. I've already begun the process. I haven't moved my bed as of writing this, but I have moved some other things in the room. Already I can feel a difference in the room. It feels bigger and lighter, which takes much of that pit feeling away.

Things have been happening since the moving of things. I'm feeling less of that pit feeling in my life. I'm recognizing some things that need to change. I have had some ahas about my life and business. All within a few days. I even reconnected with an old friend that used to edit my blogs.

I don't think it's a coincidence that things are shifting in my life after I shifted things in my home. It's not the first time this has happened. It's even a big component of Feng Shui.

If you're feeling like you're in a pit, trapped in a cycle, or some other stuck or heavy feeling, have you asked what you can do in your home to support you in getting out? If not, I hope you do so today.

Lots of love from my heart to yours,

Michele