Deep, Deep Feelings Stirred

I cannot return to the Love language series just yet. I feel a call to write about what was blocking me from continuing. My two strongest love languages are gifts and touch. These languages were coming up to talk about. I couldn't write about them because I was having some severe issues with God. I didn't really know it.

Recently, I had someone guide me through a healing process about my fear of falling. I am sure you can imagine as I am recovering from a fall last November, that this fear was interfering with my healing progress. For this first time, it became imperative that I heal this fear.

We started by talking about the memories that I had with falling. Recent or past. I listed a bunch and we started. This process took me to heal the first surgery I had. Even though I am sure that no one dropped me when I had tubes put in my ears at 18 months, I had that sensation. There were other memories and feelings of anger to deal with. Then I was taken to a memory I hadn't listed.

When I was twelve, I had tied a jump rope to a gate and proceeded to swing on it. The rope broke and I fell on my tailbone. The bruised tailbone was so excruciatingly painful. The doctors made it worse by forcing me to sit on it. I seriously can't think of a more painful experience.

This experience had so much emotion in it. I was sobbing and I had no clue it was there all along. I didn't know the feelings toward myself were there. I didn't know my feelings towards doctors were there. I didn't know my feelings toward God were there. So many feelings. So much betrayal by God for allowing it to happen.

It isn't hard to see that when I fell last November, these hidden feelings were triggered. It wasn't just the fear of going to doctors that were triggered, but I definitely felt that fear, especially that they would want me to do things that would hurt it more. I went to each appointment with apprehension. It was also that hidden anger and betrayal associated with God. Those hidden feelings were brought to the surface. I had no clue they were there, and yet they were affecting my whole life. It's why it was so hard to believe His promises even after I addressed the beliefs about promises kept.

As the remaining layers get healed, I find myself forgiving and trusting God again. I have found myself wanting to clear out all of the muck in the way of my connection with him. I have been asking Him to remove the resistance and open my heart. My daughter was surprised by this story. Her experience of me didn't allow for the idea that I could be so angry at God. I, myself was surprised at how much there was.

How much energy do you have buried deep? Maybe it doesn't affect your relationship with God. Maybe it doesn't make you afraid of doctors. Maybe it is keeping you single. Maybe it is keeping you sick. It's just this intense energy that you buried. Remember, I didn't even list that memory as one associated with falling. That's how deep it was buried. I remembered the experience but I didn't remember with any emotions because I had buried them so deep. Yet, there was always a heaviness with the memory.

Right now, a lot of deep feelings are being stirred in people. We want to get them out because even if we can't remember them, they are affecting us. They bring down our overall vibrations, they prevent us from receiving all we need. Sometimes we don't even need to know what they are, we just need to clear the energy. Sometimes you need to go into them to see how they connect. You will be led to the right tools for the situation. I trust that.

I'm here for you. Send me a message and we'll talk about what I can do for you as a friend or a healer. If money keeps you from talking to people, please don't allow that. I can do a lot for you for free or trades. I want to see you release these deep feelings so you can experience a life of peace, joy love, affluence, etc.


With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healee

Where is the Peace?

I guess I missed a week. I thought I had more posts in the queue. I am interrupting the Love Language series to write this post about the current circumstances of life.

It feels sad in my heart to see what is happening in the world. Judgments and mocking abound, fear and panic, and more. The world is heavy right now. The planet is responding to the heavy energy of the masses and there are earthquakes all over the place.

It almost seems pointless to write this. How will my one little voice make a difference? I believe in the ripple effect. Maybe only two or three of you will read this. Maybe you will be inspired. Then you will share any nugget of truth you receive, even if you don't feel inspired to share the post. Those nuggets will get your added insights. The next person will share nuggets and it continues to grow.

We must spread hope and light. We must ask ourselves, what can I do to lighten the energy of the world? Maybe your answer is just what you can do for yourself. Maybe it is what you can do for your family. Maybe you will be inspired to bigger actions. Follow those promptings and continue to ask what you can do to help lighten the energy of the world.

For me, this has been a time to really get clear. Do I really believe Christ will come again? Do I really believe God loves me? Do I believe he watches out for me, even though I couldn't get prepared as I was taught in church? So many questions for me to check in and see where I really am in this whole thing.

I consider this time a time of cleansing and uniting. As fears come up, I get to ask, “Are they mine?” Sometimes they are clearly not mine and I return to sender with God's light. If some remains, I get to ask myself, “What am I really afraid of?” Then I get to ask that those fears be healed. One time, nothing was clearing it. I followed an Access Consciousness tool. “That's an interesting point of view, I have that point of view.” As I said it, not knowing what my point of view even was, I had a thought about how I “needed a man” in this scary time. That was an interesting point of view that I didn't even know I had.

It's important when the fear is released to do things to invite the peace in. For me, much of this has come with music. I have also been listening to messages from my church. I have even read or listened to the scriptures more. Multiple times yesterday, I was reminded to breathe deep. What can you do to raise your vibration and keep it up?

With all this fear, it has been a challenge to keep hope. Each time one of my fears is triggered, it is easier to get swallowed up in the fears of the world. I have to be careful what I read on fb and believe me that isn't easy with all the talk of the things that cause me fear. I would get off altogether but I crave that connection and unity, so I'm just being as careful as I can. I'm also asking if there is anything I can do to lighten the load and inspire.

I think this is good. It's really getting me to look at not only being able to get to peace when I need to but how to get to sustained peace. How to keep my vibrations up in the hardest of times. We live in a world of polarities. You can give in to the pull to fear if you wish, or you can look for the opposite side of the coin. Where is the light in this situation? Where is the peace? Where is the joy? What am I grateful for? What are the opportunities here?

What amazing things are happening? Right now for me, there are blue skies with some white fluffy clouds. I love blue skies. We have enough computers for all five of my kids to get their school work done. My mom is alive and I choose to believe that all the energy work, essential oils, and prayers are helping her to improve. My kids will come home from their dad's today, I'm so excited. I have a grandson on the way and I get to crochet him a little blanket. My son and his wife are sending me cute pics and videos of my granddaughter. Life truly is what we make of it. I'm choosing to remind myself of how good life is. What about you? What are you grateful for?


With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

God Speaks Quality Time

In case you haven't already read them, here are the first two posts in this series. The overview God Speaks Your Love Language and the first language Words of Affirmations. Today, we are going to talk about Quality Time and how that works out with God.

One of the key phrases in the scriptures is come follow me, come unto me, and come abide with me. All of these are invitations for all of us and yet especially powerful for the one who hears love the most with quality time.

The act of devotionals can be a big challenge for a lot of us. For the quality time person, they might actually find this easier. They may fight it at first until they begin to feel His love by spending that time with Him. As they take the time to spend in prayer, bible study, devotional books, and meditation, they find that they feel the love of the Divine easily. They will often feel something is lacking on the days they don't do this. This will make this an easier thing to add to their day, without needing much discipline.

We spoke of prayer with the words people. They used prayer to express great praise and gratitude and while all of us can do this in our prayers, for the quality time person, prayer is an opportunity to have a conversation with God. When they go into prayer with the intent of spending time with God, they will talk about their day, what's on their mind for other people, and they will often listen for that confirmation that he is there with them. God is always happy to spend time with us.

I mentioned yesterday that there are three types that I regularly see in my church choir. Quality time was not one that I was thinking of and yet, they very easily can be. The motivation to come would be about spending time with God through music and/or spending time with the people in the choir.

The quality time person may not even realize why they believe God loves them or doesn't. If they stop their daily or weekly devotionals they might find they begin to feel distant from God. It won't be until they return to these habits that they begin to feel that love and support of God. It might take a bit but after a while, they will find it is the most important thing they can do for their relationship.

I often hear people say they can tell when they haven't read their scriptures for the day. I personally, don't experience this same feeling. If they are words people, the words of the scriptures will speak love to them. If they are quality time, that time with God will speak love to them. As someone who doesn't have either of these as a dominant language, it can feel a little frustrating to hear this. If I didn't know why I might wonder if something were wrong with me. Knowing that our love languages can really affect these things is super powerful for me. I have my own motivation for reading the scriptures that don't fit either of these two languages.

Let's look at the three questions.

(1) How do I most often express my love to God? If you are choosing to set aside daily or weekly time with him, then quality time may be your language. You might have a morning devotional every day. You might have a few minutes at the beginning and end of the day you give specifically to him. You may have time set aside each week specifically for him. In my church, many choose to go to our temples in order to spend time with God.

(2) What do I most often complain to God about? For a quality time person, they most likely would claim that God feels distant to them. They might even think God doesn't have time for them.

(3) What do I request of God most often? Maybe you are asking Him to help you find time to spend with Him. Maybe you are asking Him for ways to spend time with other loved ones. If you are most often praying to have more time with Him or others, it's a good indicator that Quality Time is your love language.

Remember, there are many dialects of love languages. These can affect the way you express your love to God. You may choose to have more conversations with him. You may invite Him to be a part of all of your activities. You may find that meditation fills you up the best. Maybe you're sure you are quality time and you don't know your dialect with God. Try a variety of dialects. Play around with the idea. Ask yourself questions like “How can I spend time with God today?”

Is Quality Time your love language? What ways to you experience quality time with God? Leave a comment to let me know. If you can think of a loved one who is quality time, what do you notice they do to spend time with God?


With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Golden Timing

I know you were probably expecting the next post in the love language series. I promise it's coming. I just felt that this post was more important.

As I was reading God Speaks Your Love Language (affiliate link) in preparation for my recent series, I  found this quote:

God loves us enough to allow us to stary from Him for a while if that is what it takes to create a fresh hunger for His presence.

I really liked the idea to remind us of His love for us. I think of my role as a parent. Although sometimes difficult, I will allow my children to suffer the consequences that I knew were coming. I knew it would hurt but not kill them or hurt them too deeply. I also knew that they needed that lesson now in order to prevent a bigger, more painful experience in the future.

This is how I perceive God to be with us. He knows what we are choosing and he knows the bigger picture. He allows us to go through hard times because he knows we have lessons to learn. If we don't learn them now, they get more painful. I can't imagine how it would be to watch so many people go astray, all of them His children.

These thoughts bring some others to mind. One thought is that God won't force us. He is always right there waiting. He's there ready to step in when we simply ask. Sometimes there are reasons he can't answer the prayers we seek but he's always right there, so ask. He will step in if he is allowed.

What do I mean by allowed? Well, when I believed that “God doesn't keep his promises” that belief blocked God from stepping in on any area that was a previous promise. He couldn't bless me with the things he had promised because I had a belief that he wouldn't. There are many variations of beliefs that can prevent Him. If you don't believe you are worthy of his help or blessings, how can He help you? Our own beliefs limit God's ability to help.

Now, let's talk about God's timing. I liked a recent phrase I heard, “It will come in the golden timing.” I love the idea of a golden time. It allows for my true thoughts on the timing to make so much more sense. To me, it's not really about “God's timing” but rather Him waiting until we are ready.

Let's say we are seeking a spouse. We've prayed earnestly. We are pretty sure we are ready, at least we think we are. We don't see all the other pieces that God does. More on that in a second. Let's say that God brings our spouse to us right when we ask. What if we had a hidden belief about our worthiness? We'll meet the guy of our dreams and quickly push him away because we just don't believe we are worthy. Now, if God doesn't give us him when we ask but actually waits until we are ready, we will know we are worthy of that dream and we will receive with open arms.

God's timing isn't about him. It's about us. That's why I like the idea of golden timing. It means that all of the right pieces are in place. You have the right beliefs, the other parties have the right beliefs, and it is time for magic because it is the golden timing.

Here is an interesting story on timing. Back in 2009, I was getting ready to file for divorce. I was filling out all of the papers and they were about ready to be turned in. I had a distinct prompting to wait. It wasn't easy but I waited until after the new year as I had been told. My former husband lost his job on New Years Day. Had I moved forward there would have been complications in the divorce and possibly in the mental health of all of the parties involved. It took me four more years before I finally got that divorce because some other things needed to fall in place before the timing was golden.

From this, I want you to know that God is always in favor of the golden timing. He rarely goes against that and when he does, it is for a higher purpose and lesson. He loves you so much that he will wait for you to be ready to have the relationship with you that he has always desired. He'll wait for you to let go of your anger. He'll wait for you to make time for him, or approach him in whatever ways are best for you. He's always there and he's always giving you little nudges to help you in the right direction.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.