Voices

It has been so long since I have written. I sometimes wonder why. Why do I not do the things I claim to love?

There is vulnerability in writing. There is vulnerability in letting my point of view into the world. Of allowing people to read the thoughts in my heart. That is a pretty scary thing to do. 

The thoughts come flying in, sometimes I don't even know they are there but they are. Little voices in my head,. Little hidden voices, “What if they don't like you? What if they criticize your writing? What if you offend someone with your point of view? What if the (insert name of person or organization) read what you write and don't like what they read? What if you find out in a year or two that everything you wrote was wrong?” Do you have these voices too? Maybe your voices say different things but I imagine they all feel the same. 

Where do they come from? What purpose do they serve? Do they serve a purpose?

The voices are a part of our ego. An ego that is designed to keep you safe. Your ego cherishes you. It loves life and wants to live. All these thoughts are programmed to keep us safe.

That sounds like quite a stretch some days, doesn't it? There is no way that these fears and even negative self-talk telling us we are stupid or ugly or whatever could be protecting us. That's just a silly thought. What if it were true?

If you believe you are ugly, then you won't step into the light and then you won't get hurt. "Success," says the little thought. "I am keeping you safe here in the shadows." If you think you are stupid, you won't share your voice. If you are not heard, you cannot be rejected. "You will live and won't be hurt," thinks the little voice. "Success." On goes the thoughts in our head. On they go protecting us.

These little thoughts found their birth early in our life. In the very earliest days. One of my favorite things is finding where these little voices began and sending so much unconditional love and truth that they must release. Then the other voices can speak up. The voice that says, “You are so beautiful. Let yourself be seen. You are so smart. If you speak up, then you will fill the mind of another and together you will be lifted.” 

Imagine living a life where the little voices in your head realized that to truly live, you get to do those vulnerable things. That's where the living really happens. Safety is in reaching out.

Thank you so much for reading. Until next time,

Michele

Intuitive Healer & Soul Shine Specialist

Embracing the Feelings

Woohoo, two weeks in a row. I must be on a roll!

I am nervoucited. I am teaching my first HomeVision course this week. It’s a 3-week class starting on Thursday, Aug 27. (I would love to see you there)

I know that the information is powerful. I know that the people who have used the information I am teaching have had some pretty profound results. I know I am an expert in this field. For those reasons, I am excited.

Then comes the doubt which makes me nervous. Do you do that? Do you doubt your gifts and expertise? What if no one comes? What if they don’t like me? What if they think it was a waste of their money, even though it is only $27? All of the what-ifs come in. I know we all do this to some degree or another.

Usually, or at least in the past, when the what-if would come, I would try to avoid it. Maybe I would even try to release it. I might find success and I might not.

One of the reasons it is not successful is because I am approaching it from a place of resistance. What we resist persists. I’m fighting the beliefs and fears. Because I am fighting them and wanting to change them out of fear, they persist.

There is a fun little trick that takes the wind right out of their sails. Embrace them, love them.

To embrace them, we start by acknowledging them. “I have this fear. I am afraid of looking like a fool.” Once I have acknowledged what it is, it has already lost a piece of its power. It is no longer hidden. 

Then we say “I am embracing this. I feel this. In fact, I want to feel it bigger than this. I grow this fear. I really feel into this fear.” That takes out so much more power. We are no longer resisting. We are moving into it. We are becoming one with it. All it wants is to be felt and known. 

After that comes the magic step. “I love this. I love this fear of looking like a fool.” We repeat the steps. Acknowledge beliefs and feelings. Embrace them. Grow them. Love them. 

After a while, you won’t even be able to find the feelings anymore. The power of love just takes them completely away. We didn’t resist, it doesn’t persist.

One key is to approach this as a resting opportunity, not a changing opportunity. Sometimes things don’t completely change. The circumstances may not. My mother will always be dead but the feelings can go, they can change, I can be at peace.

The point of embracing is not to change. It is to come to a place of peace. I don’t go into my feelings wanting them to go away. When I do, they take longer to release. I need to go in with the intent to be at peace. Listen to my feelings and thoughts, love them for what they are, and allow myself to be peace. The fact that feelings usually leave is a bonus.

I hope you found this extra helpful.

If you want to be a part of the HomeVision program, here is the link. There are going to be replays so even if you can’t make it to the live classes, that’s ok.

Lots of love,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Deep, Deep Feelings Stirred

I cannot return to the Love language series just yet. I feel a call to write about what was blocking me from continuing. My two strongest love languages are gifts and touch. These languages were coming up to talk about. I couldn't write about them because I was having some severe issues with God. I didn't really know it.

Recently, I had someone guide me through a healing process about my fear of falling. I am sure you can imagine as I am recovering from a fall last November, that this fear was interfering with my healing progress. For this first time, it became imperative that I heal this fear.

We started by talking about the memories that I had with falling. Recent or past. I listed a bunch and we started. This process took me to heal the first surgery I had. Even though I am sure that no one dropped me when I had tubes put in my ears at 18 months, I had that sensation. There were other memories and feelings of anger to deal with. Then I was taken to a memory I hadn't listed.

When I was twelve, I had tied a jump rope to a gate and proceeded to swing on it. The rope broke and I fell on my tailbone. The bruised tailbone was so excruciatingly painful. The doctors made it worse by forcing me to sit on it. I seriously can't think of a more painful experience.

This experience had so much emotion in it. I was sobbing and I had no clue it was there all along. I didn't know the feelings toward myself were there. I didn't know my feelings towards doctors were there. I didn't know my feelings toward God were there. So many feelings. So much betrayal by God for allowing it to happen.

It isn't hard to see that when I fell last November, these hidden feelings were triggered. It wasn't just the fear of going to doctors that were triggered, but I definitely felt that fear, especially that they would want me to do things that would hurt it more. I went to each appointment with apprehension. It was also that hidden anger and betrayal associated with God. Those hidden feelings were brought to the surface. I had no clue they were there, and yet they were affecting my whole life. It's why it was so hard to believe His promises even after I addressed the beliefs about promises kept.

As the remaining layers get healed, I find myself forgiving and trusting God again. I have found myself wanting to clear out all of the muck in the way of my connection with him. I have been asking Him to remove the resistance and open my heart. My daughter was surprised by this story. Her experience of me didn't allow for the idea that I could be so angry at God. I, myself was surprised at how much there was.

How much energy do you have buried deep? Maybe it doesn't affect your relationship with God. Maybe it doesn't make you afraid of doctors. Maybe it is keeping you single. Maybe it is keeping you sick. It's just this intense energy that you buried. Remember, I didn't even list that memory as one associated with falling. That's how deep it was buried. I remembered the experience but I didn't remember with any emotions because I had buried them so deep. Yet, there was always a heaviness with the memory.

Right now, a lot of deep feelings are being stirred in people. We want to get them out because even if we can't remember them, they are affecting us. They bring down our overall vibrations, they prevent us from receiving all we need. Sometimes we don't even need to know what they are, we just need to clear the energy. Sometimes you need to go into them to see how they connect. You will be led to the right tools for the situation. I trust that.

I'm here for you. Send me a message and we'll talk about what I can do for you as a friend or a healer. If money keeps you from talking to people, please don't allow that. I can do a lot for you for free or trades. I want to see you release these deep feelings so you can experience a life of peace, joy love, affluence, etc.


With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healee

Where is the Peace?

I guess I missed a week. I thought I had more posts in the queue. I am interrupting the Love Language series to write this post about the current circumstances of life.

It feels sad in my heart to see what is happening in the world. Judgments and mocking abound, fear and panic, and more. The world is heavy right now. The planet is responding to the heavy energy of the masses and there are earthquakes all over the place.

It almost seems pointless to write this. How will my one little voice make a difference? I believe in the ripple effect. Maybe only two or three of you will read this. Maybe you will be inspired. Then you will share any nugget of truth you receive, even if you don't feel inspired to share the post. Those nuggets will get your added insights. The next person will share nuggets and it continues to grow.

We must spread hope and light. We must ask ourselves, what can I do to lighten the energy of the world? Maybe your answer is just what you can do for yourself. Maybe it is what you can do for your family. Maybe you will be inspired to bigger actions. Follow those promptings and continue to ask what you can do to help lighten the energy of the world.

For me, this has been a time to really get clear. Do I really believe Christ will come again? Do I really believe God loves me? Do I believe he watches out for me, even though I couldn't get prepared as I was taught in church? So many questions for me to check in and see where I really am in this whole thing.

I consider this time a time of cleansing and uniting. As fears come up, I get to ask, “Are they mine?” Sometimes they are clearly not mine and I return to sender with God's light. If some remains, I get to ask myself, “What am I really afraid of?” Then I get to ask that those fears be healed. One time, nothing was clearing it. I followed an Access Consciousness tool. “That's an interesting point of view, I have that point of view.” As I said it, not knowing what my point of view even was, I had a thought about how I “needed a man” in this scary time. That was an interesting point of view that I didn't even know I had.

It's important when the fear is released to do things to invite the peace in. For me, much of this has come with music. I have also been listening to messages from my church. I have even read or listened to the scriptures more. Multiple times yesterday, I was reminded to breathe deep. What can you do to raise your vibration and keep it up?

With all this fear, it has been a challenge to keep hope. Each time one of my fears is triggered, it is easier to get swallowed up in the fears of the world. I have to be careful what I read on fb and believe me that isn't easy with all the talk of the things that cause me fear. I would get off altogether but I crave that connection and unity, so I'm just being as careful as I can. I'm also asking if there is anything I can do to lighten the load and inspire.

I think this is good. It's really getting me to look at not only being able to get to peace when I need to but how to get to sustained peace. How to keep my vibrations up in the hardest of times. We live in a world of polarities. You can give in to the pull to fear if you wish, or you can look for the opposite side of the coin. Where is the light in this situation? Where is the peace? Where is the joy? What am I grateful for? What are the opportunities here?

What amazing things are happening? Right now for me, there are blue skies with some white fluffy clouds. I love blue skies. We have enough computers for all five of my kids to get their school work done. My mom is alive and I choose to believe that all the energy work, essential oils, and prayers are helping her to improve. My kids will come home from their dad's today, I'm so excited. I have a grandson on the way and I get to crochet him a little blanket. My son and his wife are sending me cute pics and videos of my granddaughter. Life truly is what we make of it. I'm choosing to remind myself of how good life is. What about you? What are you grateful for?


With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer