I'm Back :)

It has been a while. I have gotten pretty off track and then I went through some fascinating adventures.

Let’s start with some big ones that are really affecting my life and what is important to me.

In the midst of this pandemic that has everyone obsessed, I lost my mom. She had cancer that we didn’t know about until two weeks before she passed. It was devastating in many ways. At the same time, I was surprised that in many ways it was a relief.

To understand, you must understand that my mom was wounded. She was a hurt woman who was not living the life she was designed to live. It was obvious to me that she was suffering in many ways. I never knew what to do for her and I was trapped in some stinking thinking as well.

I lived with my mom. This meant that most of the house was not in my control. The house was hers, even though we rented. It was her choice to live here. It was her dishes we were using; her furniture and things like that. This place was hers which meant that I didn’t do much around the house. I felt resentful that my stuff was packed away for years I felt powerless and out of sorts.

When she passed, it was time for me to claim this all as my own. I had to begin the process of creating order and sorting out what was what. I still have a long way to go. I find it hard to go through her stuff because there is so much. She was pretty much a hoarder.

The other thing that happened was back in November, I broke my knee. This left me on the couch for three months until surgery. The 7 months since surgery has been a slow process of healing. I still limp pretty bad and I am still very limited on what I can do. It is a real challenge and with the extra work put on me, it has been hard.

I have used this time to learn so much about myself. I have allowed myself to heal. I have allowed myself to feel awful for a while. Sometimes I even allowed myself to avoid the feelings for a while. That was a hard lesson.

I learned that although it is important to feel your feelings, there is a reason we stuff them. There is a reason we avoid them. Sometimes when a big thing or two happens it is too much and we must use the coping methods to avoid the feelings for a while. When we are strong, we can come back. The real problem with stuffing feelings is that most people don’t come back. Most people avoid them for so long until they come out as illness or something similar.

I have been addressing a few feelings here and there. Some are really big and some are smaller. Some are still on the shelf for a while. It has only been about three months since my mom passed. There is still a long way to go and that’s ok.

I am grateful for the process. I am grateful for my tools. When I get stuck, I know how to use my home and other tools to get me unstuck and that’s pretty awesome.

I hope that your life is going well. I hope that you are allowing yourself to put things on a shelf when needed and then remembering to take them out and feel them when you are stronger. I hope that you are feeling and healing. If you ever need some help with any part of the process, reach out. I’ll be happy to help in whatever way I can.

Big hugs,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Peace in the Consequences

As I energetically brought my home to mind for healing, I saw or rather didn't see the foundation. Where the foundation was meant to be was an empty space. Is it any wonder that I ended up in a pile on the floor of my job? No foundation to stand on in my home. That's just a representative of what is going on inside of me.

As I was healing my Soul, I spoke with a part of me that was angry and hurt. She'd “kicked the leg out from under me.” She had much regret because she didn't know that the consequence would be so great. A hurt and frustrated part of me just wanted attention and to be heard. This created a severe sprain that may even need surgery.

As I was doing these healings, I became aware of a reality that in some ways I wish wasn't. At the same time, I am at peace with it. Our energy creates circumstances and we can heal that energy but most of the time, the consequence has to finish out. Although miracles can happen, there are some areas that either won't have or likely won't have miracles.

If I have a torn ligament or two, the chance of them reattaching themselves is pretty slim. Maybe with the right tools and beliefs, it could happen. Maybe there is a reason beyond my current understanding of why that won't happen. I only know that I had a peaceful awareness that I would have consequences and it could include surgery.

I am reminded of a woman who fell off a cliff. She will be in a wheelchair for the rest of her life. There isn't much she can do about it. Healing the cause of her fall won't cure her. A criminal who changes his ways, a true conversion from crime will still have consequences to account for in his life. Does that mean the healing shouldn't be done? Does it mean the criminal shouldn't change his ways?

What if my healing now prevents complications? What if my healing now causes my knee to heal very fast? What if my healing now prevents a repeat injury or other future pains that are common after such an injury? The woman in the wheelchair could find a renewed energy for life, or even prevent future organ damage as a result of healing. The man sitting in jail who has had a reform could get a lesser punishment and even prevent a future punishment that would be far greater. He could even be the means of inspiration for someone else.

I don't believe it is ever too late for healing the soul. The greatest blessings that come from healing the soul are a deep sense of joy and appreciation for life. An opportunity comes to step into the bigness we all have inside of us. For some people, that bigness will come in very small places. A body with limitations can still feel bigger than life. When you feel bigger than life, it doesn't matter what circumstances you are in. You'll find a reason to love where you are. Of course, that will also bring about more opportunity to have circumstances and environment reflect the awesomeness of you.

Even with all of my experience, I was surprised at the missing foundation. I knew that I had been feeling ungrounded and like I was unsupported in life. I hadn't thought to look at what my home was reflecting back to me. I know that sounds silly coming from me. Sometimes we forget to use our own tools.

I feel more supported than ever in my life. For the first time in my life, I can sense angels around me longing to serve me in whatever way. There is peace and connectedness I hadn't had before. I know things are on the right track for me. Won't it be fun to see where this leads?

I would love to support you in your healing journey. I have created a page that lists my Soul and Home healing services. If you feel drawn to check it out, then please do so. If you have questions or comments, feel free to ask them below or send me a message.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

It's About That Feeling

What do you want to feel in your home?

For me, the answer is easy. I have thought years about what I want my home to feel like. For the longest time, I didn't know how to describe it. I remember going into other people's houses and feeling something. I loved being there and I knew that I wanted that in my home.

As I have worked with different people, I've noticed that we all want something from our homes. Some people are looking for a peaceful haven, some are looking for an escape from the world, others are looking for a place of gathering and family.

As you are deciding what you want your home to be, think about these things. Do you want your entire home to feel one way? For me, this is the case. I want people to walk into my home and feel a peace that they want to feel in their homes. Maybe you want a home that has a different feeling depending on the room. Maybe you want the family room to feel fun and the bedroom to feel restful.

Close your eyes and imagine you're looking at your ideal home. It can be the home you are living in, or it can be that dream home you will have someday. Take a deep breath and feel the joy of knowing that is your home and it's just right for you.

Now, walk through the front door. What do you feel as you walk in? Write the word or words that best describe that feeling. Look around and take it in, the feeling and any details you notice. Are there certain colors you need to note? Certain shapes, smells, etc. Are there people there or are you alone? Write it all down because there is a message in each little detail that you become aware of.

After a while in this first room, walk through each room of the house. Note the same things. First, note the feeling and then note the details. Write them all down.

If this is the home you are living in, what can you do right now to bring that feeling into each room? Can you bring the colors in, the smells, the shapes? What is the next step to creating the home you want?

If this was your dream home, what can you do to bring those feelings into the place where you are now? We need to surround ourselves with those feelings now if we want to be aligned with those feelings when we move in. Can we use some of those colors and smells in our current place? Are there things we own that don't fit that feeling? Are there things we need to add to bring in those feelings? What is your next step?

Here is an assignment for you. Every day imagine your home. Tune into those feelings again. Follow it up by asking yourself, “What would it take to bring this feeling into my home?” When you get an answer, act on it.

Feel free to review last week's post about What Would It Take.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

House Intuitive

Healing homes and the people who love them.

Seasons Come, Seasons Go

Butterflies, butterflies, butterflies. If you have known me for long, you know that I have a love of butterflies. Yet, here I am getting rid of many butterfly things and often thinking, “I don't want more butterflies.”

The thing about collections, desires, and affinities is they are about seasons. I have been coming to the end of a great transformational period. The butterfly is a symbol of transformation. I still feel a pull to have them for my business which is about transforming lives through the home, but I find that the pull to have them in my life is coming to a close.

Sometimes, our season is like this butterfly for me. We need a symbol in our life for a while and then we're complete. Animal totems will often be like this. Maybe you're drawn to bears for a while because you need what the bear teaches and then you've learned and you're ready for the next totem.

Other times the reason for the end of the season is different. I'll explain a couple of alternative reasons for a season to change.

As I have been writing this, I realized why my season for snow globes came to an end a few years back. I used to be in love with them. I noticed my interest in them begin to wane when my daughter was about 3. Now that my youngest is about 10, I find my interest returning. I can see that for this, there is a subconscious belief about having those nice glass decorations around toddlers and young children. Sometimes, we lose interest for a time because of the stage of life we are in.

I have also heard of a Karmic desire for things. An ancestor, or for those of you who believe in past lives a past life could affect what you are drawn to. I wish I remembered the details of a story I heard. I believe the ancestor was a pig farmer or something and they slaughtered a number of pigs. The descendant was drawn to collecting pig figurines. When she reached a certain number, she stopped collecting, in fact, she lost interest in pigs altogether. There was a figurine for each pig slaughtered as if that would somehow make up for the failings of the ancestor. Of course, none of this was conscious until a psychic got involved to give answers.

When we are decluttering, it can be easy to want to keep holding onto things like my butterflies, or this other person and her pigs. At one time, they gave great joy but now not so much. It isn't uncommon to think we need to hold on for the past's sake, or even for the “one day I might love it again” idea. Living in the past or future like this does not make our soul sing.

If you are really asking your soul what makes it sing, you might get an answer like, “pack it away for a time.” I didn't understand why a pillow that doesn't seem to match my decor was something for me to keep but I kept it. Now the answer is becoming clear as I am turning my attention to decorating my bedroom in mermaid themes. The pillow will be a perfect fit. If you don't get a strong “Yes, it makes my soul sing,” or another reason to keep it or pack it away, is it really worth keeping? We want to surround our soul with things that make it sing.

Holding onto things because they once brought us joy is living in the past. Our season may have come to an end. Holding onto what we might need someday, is living in a future that may never exist. It's also a sign of living in scarcity. If you have an abundant or blessings mindset, you will trust you have what you need and will have what you need.

I do have one exception. In my church, we have been guided to have food and emergency storage. It's a hard act to balance. On the one hand, we don't want to live in fear of what could happen. On the other hand, we want to be obedient. In cases like these, I ask that you commune with your higher power for the answer that is right for you. Keep what you need in a state of obedience, not fear. Check in about each item and make sure it is right for you and that your reason is not fear-based. Just as with all things, they should make your soul sing. Obedience would make your soul sing, fear will make your soul cringe.

For me, the season of butterflies in my personal life is coming to an end. I'm moving out of a state of transformation and into a state of living in the flow and magic of life, hence the mermaids. Mermaids live in the flow and they are magical creatures. My business still feels aligned with butterflies so I will still have them on my wall for the background of my YouTube videos and around in my logo and such for business. My business is still transforming people's lives.

Does this mean I'll get rid of all the other butterflies in my life? No. The candle is still beautiful and reminds me of the love of a friend, so I'll keep it. There are other things that have similar sentiments. I'll look at each butterfly individually to see if it makes my heart sing. If someone gives me a butterfly, I'll ask that object if it makes my heart sing as well. I don't hate butterflies. I still like them, I just don't have that strong pull anymore, and that's okay.

Is there something in your life that you have been holding onto because it once was? Is there something you are holding onto for a someday that may never come? Do they make your soul sing? If not, is it time to let them go?

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

House Intuitive

Healing homes and the people who love them.

Chaos Preceding Order

 Today, I want to talk about chaos. I don't know about you, but I find it can be a little discouraging and overwhelming to end up in a chaos situation.

The truth about chaos is that it is necessary. One must tear down an old building in order to build a new one in its place. A couple of years ago, my children and I watched such an occurrence. The city tore down a building that was falling apart. It became a big mess of brick, dust, metal, glass, and more.

Imagine what would happen if the city looked at it the way we often look at our own lives and homes. They'd have seen the big mess and got discouraged. They would have thought things like, “Ugh, it's such a mess. I'll never get through this.” Then, with that great feeling of overwhelm, they'd start avoiding the mess and filling their time with other activities. Years later, there would still be a big mess.

Instead, the city had a plan. They knew that chaos precedes order. They knew that they had to clean up the mess and make room for a new building. It took a while to clean up the mess. After a couple of months cleaning up, they were able to break ground on the new building. They dug new holes and began construction on the buildings. First, the firehouse, as it was a priority. Then the police station and city-building went up. Lastly, they just finished replacing the park that was near this mess. It took a long time, but the effort was worth it. We have some beautiful buildings that are safe for our city officials to use.

Just this morning, my children were cleaning in their room. After a bit of progress, we thought they might be done. Then they decided it was time to clean out under my daughter's bed. It didn't take long for the room to look like they had not done a thing. Their room became a chaotic mess. My job as mom is to keep them going. I know that the mess is a necessary phase and the clean will be cleaner because they did this first.

This kind of chaos happens a lot when decluttering. We go into a closet and pull everything out. It then looks like a big mess. It really wouldn't make sense to stop in the middle just because it seems like a lot. We know that in the end, it will be cleaner because we'll be able to let go of the things that were hiding.

This probably makes sense to you when dealing with the cluttering or deep cleaning concept. The questions then come, “What about the chaos that just shows up?” “What about the room I clean and then seemingly by magic is a mess again?”

This chaos feels different but what if it isn't? What if it's a message from our subconscious to pay attention?

My space has been feeling especially like this. I cleaned and then when kids went through their clothes, the extras that we're saving for the next kid got dumped in my room. Then I got a job and they just sat there because it takes too much effort to put them away.

I get to ask myself questions. How is this a reflection in my life? I thought I had my money story cleaned up and then some things changed and it's like a bunch of stuff got dumped right back in. With this little bit of information, I can clean up my room and my money story. I'll keep asking the questions, clearing the energy, and my room will stay clean.

Just like the city needed a plan to deal with their mess, I need a plan to deal with mine. I don't want to let the chaos take over. I want to use it as a steppingstone on the path to order. What needs to be destroyed in my life in order to create the life I want? What do I need to add or take away? What is my next step? What would it take to get it cleaned up so well that my room can stay clean?

You too get to ask yourself similar questions. What your current home situation represents. What your next step is. What you want your outcome to be in the end. Keep asking the questions and moving forward so that you can create the new life you intend.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the people who love them.

The Deep Pit

A few months ago, I went on a big kick to get my bedroom in order. I was decluttering and reorganizing. It felt great to get it all done. My main intention during the process was to actually declutter everything in my room.

A little background, I live with my mom so the only space I have complete control over is my room. Most of my own personal stuff is in that room. So, for me to declutter my room meant I was decluttering most of my stuff.

Some of the things were hard to get through and I learned a lot about myself. Then, I was done. I was able to move onto the downstairs bathroom which was another room that was mostly my stuff. After that, I just seemed to have no energy to face anything in the house.

That led me into a weird funk that actually affected my whole life. I didn't want to face anything outside of the safety of my own room. I wasn't spending all my time in my room. I just wasn't doing cleaning anywhere in the house. I wasn't making my YouTube videos, I wasn't working in my business at all, and I wasn't enjoying life. I was in a pit.

One of the things I teach is that the patterns in our homes are linked to the patterns in our lives. That means that if I want to switch the energy in my life, one tool is doing something different in my home. If I want to switch the energy in my home, I can change something in some area of my life. 

I had the awareness that with my current room layout, I felt like I was sleeping in a pit. Huh? That was exactly how life felt. What could I do about it?

I asked the questions; I got an answer. I needed to rearrange my room.

It hadn't been that long. Was I wrong in my room placement before? No!

Before, my intent was to declutter. For me, knowing I had to move my bed to a certain spot was an encouragement to declutter what was in the way. I needed that push and that was the motivation for the room layout.

I've also learned some interesting things. I hadn't fully cleared the energy from a situation with my neighbors. Much of the situation happened with my bed in the same place and I often stressed, cried, and unloaded in prayer while in my bed. That energy was still hanging around. I was able to finish clearing my home and my heart from that situation.

Now, it's time to rearrange again. This time my intention is getting myself out of the pit. I've already begun the process. I haven't moved my bed as of writing this, but I have moved some other things in the room. Already I can feel a difference in the room. It feels bigger and lighter, which takes much of that pit feeling away.

Things have been happening since the moving of things. I'm feeling less of that pit feeling in my life. I'm recognizing some things that need to change. I have had some ahas about my life and business. All within a few days. I even reconnected with an old friend that used to edit my blogs.

I don't think it's a coincidence that things are shifting in my life after I shifted things in my home. It's not the first time this has happened. It's even a big component of Feng Shui.

If you're feeling like you're in a pit, trapped in a cycle, or some other stuck or heavy feeling, have you asked what you can do in your home to support you in getting out? If not, I hope you do so today.

Lots of love from my heart to yours,

Michele