Passion Test Meets My Soul's Agenda

Between my birthday and the New Year, like many, I have been on a reset journey. For me, it looks like reevaluating what I want from life.

A few months back, I came across Janet Attwood's Passion Test. You're supposed to write down a whole bunch of things you want to experience from life and then evaluate them on what you are more passionate about. You end up with a top 5 that you spend more of your attention on.

When I did this the first time, I got "Knitting my own clothes with nice yarns." It was a fun answer and I have been getting some nicer yarns and having a blast making my clothes. Most of the others just kind of fell by the wayside.

This time, I was reminded of a couple of things. One is my motivator and the other is my Soul's Agenda word. I thought I would talk a little about both and then explain what happened when I applied them to the passion test.

Motivators

There are 4 main ways in which people are motivated. 

1. Some people are motivated by passion. Just feeling passionate about something keeps them going, it lights them up and they act on the things they are passionate about. These people need to feel that passion for all of their goals. 

2. Some people are motivated by vision. They get a vision of what they want and that's enough. As long as they hold the vision, they are taking action and moving forward.

3. Some people are motivated by their why. As long as they have a good why, they will keep going.

4. Some people are motivated by peace. Will the goal bring peace to the heart? Then they more likely to act.

You may notice that 3 of these are frequently addressed in the goal setting world. In fact, it's really easy to tell people to find what they are passionate about, create a vision/goal, and make sure they have their why. Most people will find success from this because it will hit their motivator. The 4th one has a harder time finding motivation in general.

Soul's Agenda

The Soul Agenda word is a concept presented by Ani Anderson in her book 'Finding Your Soul's Agenda". You go through a process to find your one word to live life by. You'll also create your own definitions as well as look at what it feels like to live in the opposite. Everyone has a word that they use to describe an expansive, joyful feeling we get when we do something that is right for us.

A friend got Thrilling as her word. I know of someone getting Passion as their word and another getting Adventure. Alive or some version is a known word as well. My word is Light, mostly it is in the form of not heavy but also not dark works.

Back to the passion test.

I think I am motivated by peace. When I try to follow the idea of passion, it's hard to find anything that motivates me for long. It is easier to do it if it will be fun but even then, it's just not enough to keep me going. If I was motivated by the vision, I would be so successful. I am constantly trying to get the goals and visions in my mind, just to have them be forgotten. I know if the why would inspire, I would do a lot more.

My friend couldn't understand why I wasn't motivated to clean up a room when it would mean that my kids and I would all have a room. Things were a bit chaotic after my mom died. One would think giving my boys a space to sleep would be motivation but it wasn't. Even the idea of helping people in some way just doesn't motivate me. In a moment it feels like a nice plan but it does not sustain.

The problem is, peace isn't really a word that motivates me either. Peace is an elusive word. That's where the Soul Agenda word comes in. If I think about what makes me feel light, that is something I want to do. 

I did the passion test. I asked the passion questions. I got this list:

1. Using Natural Yarns to knit me stunning clothes.
2. Created a Home for Christ to dwell in.
3. Hold space for Christ in my heart.
4. Spend quality time with my family.
5. Create and hold space for Love (Christ) in people’s homes.

It's an okay list. They are all things I desire. I decided to try a different approach. This time, I traded out "passion" for my Soul Agenda word. Which one makes me feel Light? My list is a bit different.

1. Creating a home for Christ to dwell in.
2. Holding space for Christ in my heart.
3. Creating and holding space for Love in people’s homes.
4. Spending quality time with my family.
5. Married to my sweetheart.
6. Using natural yarns to knit me stunning clothes tied with making alpaca socks for my kids.

More importantly, I do feel peaceful about this. The order changed a bit and my knitting moved way down the list. I enjoy my knitting but if it's all I do during a day, I feel heavy at the end of the day. I want to go to bed feeling light about my day.

Will this motivate me? I'm still not sure but I know I feel better about my list then I ever did passion lists.

I hope something in this inspired you, helped you to feel a bit lighter and ready for the New Year. I hope 2025 is a great year for you!

Hugs,

Michele

Soul Shine Specialist
Let your soul shine big, bright, live, and beautiful!

Start in the Middle

Having a fun conversation with my daughter. It all started with a conversation about her desire to be an actual bard. Well, really it started last night when we were talking about how her back was out of alignment and that led to talking about her room (because I'm me) and we discovered what area was out of alignment. Purpose, it all boiled down to purpose.

She hadn't even done any of the work in her room and just the awareness last night had her writing in her book, after being stuck for a while. Along with the book was her talking about what she really wants to do. She wants to go around singing and telling stories in person like an actual bard. Just that awareness last night was powerful enough to get her moving forward. Imagine what will happen when she actually does the work in her room!

It led me to talking about my career. What room in the house is associated with my career? The laundry room. We talked about how overwhelming it is. Her stuff is in there. My mom's stuff is in there. My stuff is getting buried. How I don't know where to start? This is where her quote comes in. "I would start in the middle because people don't expect that."  

Starting in the middle of this challenge isn't really an option because I wouldn't know where the middle is. The thing that struck me was "people don't expect that." How could I approach this in a new and unexpected way?

I decided to go the route of saying, "Yes, I want to be invisible. Why do I want to be invisible?" Although I didn't get direct answers. The energy opened up and other ideas started coming. 

The next day, we were talking to my younger daughter about how her style makes her feel sexy. She said the word sexy with such shame. I'm not talking the sexy of immodest clothing but there is such a connotation around the word that we can't see it any other way. Again, me being me, we went clearing that. She had some comparisonitis to take care of.

We ended with dancing to some songs that own being sexy. Mehan Trainor's song "Me Too" was one we played. My older daughter came in my face and sang "If I were you, I'd want to be me too." That's when things came back around to me. My internal response was, "Yeah, I do want to be you."

In fact, as I'm looking through different thoughts they all boil down to "I don't want to be me." It's not an unheard of thought in my head, but it isn't one that stood out so strong before. Now, I'm healing it. Will it be fully gone the next time I write? I hope so but if not, it's ok because layers will be gone and that's a step closer.

An unexpected approach brought an idea fully into my mind to address. What unexpected approach do you need in order to heal your life and declutter your home?

Michele

Soul Shine Specialist
a Decluttering & Healing Guide

Writing Again?

I used to be a consistent writer. I even had a friend who did editing every week for me. I had 3 or 4 posts in the queue ready to go. I was writing a newsletter and creating blog posts each week. I loved it.

Somewhere along the way, someone convinced me that I needed to do videos. I don't mind doing video, sometimes I even enjoy it but it means I'm not writing. It actually means there is a part of me that went dormant. In fact, sitting down to write this, there is a part of me that feels like I don't even know what to do anymore. How do I write? What do I write?

I've had little reminders that I am not writing anymore. It sometimes shows up as a bit of jealousy when someone mentions writing of any kind. Other times it feels like there is some prompt from the Divine telling me to get writing.

Today, I went to a lady who did a chakra healing on me. She said my throat chakra was really stuck. We talked a little about writing and that's when I really began to remember how much I loved writing once upon a time.

I still want to do my yarn videos and maybe even some videos aligned with the content on this blog. It's sometimes fun to make a video. I also want to make writing a priority. I want to give voice to that part of me that has been silenced. The author within me has something to say if I would just give her the opportunity to express herself.

What about you? Do you have things that you stopped doing because you decided to do other things? Maybe they are fun things or maybe they are shoulds. Are they hiding some part of you? Interesting to ponder.

Lots of love,

Michele

Let your soul shine big, bright, live, and beautiful!

Message from the Sloth

My dear friends,

It's been quite an adventure through life lately. I found some cool answers as I have progressed through this life journey. I love how life gives us exactly what we need.

Recently, I spent time pondering on the messages from a sloth. The idea of deep rest was appealing to me. I have participated in Intentional Resting for some time now. Could I take this technique to a new level?

As I was contemplating, I thought about how a friend of mine and I often will clear words and their opposites of all energy. We clear the opposite because sometimes we will stay in the lower vibration because we have blocks around the higher vibrations.

I began to clear "rest" and as I was clearing, the phrase "No rest for the weary" kept running through my head. Perfect, I cleared that too. Then I noticed there was a fear showing up, "If I rest deeply, I'll die." We do say, "Rest in peace," to those that are dead. So, I cleared that as well. I also did the energy of weary. What about opposites? The opposite of weary is energized and refreshed. Of course, I cleared those as well.

The most amazing thing started happening. I started feeling refreshed and rested. I felt so much tension ease from my body. 

With this new sense of resting, and knowing that I wouldn't die if I truly rested, I tried Intentional Resting again. I loved the technique before and now it's more powerful than I could have imagined. I felt deep resting as I said the resting phrases. I even added "deeply" to the phrase. "I am resting deeply for..."

I had some interesting experiences with this. Resting for and into my vagus nerve. The yawning was huge and continued for a few minutes. Allowing deep rest in the vagus nerve is kind of big. I rested for my jaw, again huge yawns that lasted for a few minutes. I even rested for my brain.

I wish I could explain how it feels to have my body rest. I have been in such a high alert state for so many years. It's pretty incredible to actually feel rested.

Michele

P.S. If you are interested in guidance for clearing some of these paradigms, beliefs, and such, feel free to reach out: soulmagicalmichele@gmail.com

Soul Shine Specialist
Let your soul shine big, bright, live, and beautiful!

Changes are Sometimes Good

Hello, my friends!

It has been so long. I wanted to share some changes and insight into my life purpose.

Today, someone posted on FB about being praised for things out of alignment with you. I didn't get this praise but I did become aware of all the times my mom shoulded on me. "You should teach piano lessons." "You should work at ... because you type well" (or ten-key well) "You should have kept going in the interpreting program." "You should have done something with interior design." The list goes on and on.

I decided it was time to clear some of this. Especially because the house cleaning and energy work I do is completely a should, because I can do it. I don't love it. I do it because I can and people seem to want it. In fact, I actually resent it and being known as a person to go to for energy work about the home.

I thought I had an inner rebel. When I decided to do some inner healing work, I found not a rebel but a crying young lady who was so attacked by all the shoulds that if she reacted to the world, it looked rebellious. After a while of working with her, I was led behind her where I saw a young 3 or 4 year old me. She too had shoulds coming at her. "You should be friends with so-and-so" and other shoulds were there too.

I don't know what I'm going to do now that I'm no longer holding onto the hurt. I know I feel a desire I have never felt before. I feel capable in ways I have never felt.

Let me tell you some other things. I got the name of my business because my soul sang when I thought of the words Soul Shine Live (and that's a long i as in alive, not short as in give.) I really didn't know what it was about. Later, I called myself a Soul Shine Specialist. I have gone through a lot of labels but this one also sang to me. I don't always use it but I never let it go. I just know there is something about this soul shine thing that is so important to me.

I did a course once on finding your modality. Which is basically your own tools for whatever work you do. One of the last things in the course was this guided meditation in which you saw your modality in its fullest. I wasn't cleaning house energy. I was working with relationships, especially those with self and God.

I didn't think I was really capable of this work. It feels so important. I knew that I had improved my relationship incredibly and had done extensive healing work in my relationship with God. I am a single mom and the relationship with my kids isn't always as wonderful as I would care to have. I felt like it was far from me.

A few months ago, I was given an incredible gift. I learned about Body of 9. It's incredible. It teaches us about 9 centers of the body and how each person is born with a different one as their dominant active one. It gives you physical things you can do to be more of you as well as ones you can use to gain insight into the other 8 numbers. It was a huge missing piece of my work.

I'm now learning to identify the numbers in people for myself. I'm very excited and I feel like this will be a huge piece to my work as a Soul Shine Specialist. If you want to learn more, you can go here. (It is an affiliate link.)

Back to the title of my post. Someone today said that common statement, "I hate change." I don't. I definitely prefer change on my terms. I love growing. Releasing all those should and heavy energy today was a form of change. It's the kind of change I love. It allows me to feel better and freer. It allows me to step more fully into my soul shine. I loved it when my son married and brought change into the family. When each baby born brings change into our family. When I learn new tools that change my life for the better. 

When you stop to think about it, you don't hate change either. In fact, you would hate life if there was no change. I invite you to embrace change, for change is growth. Nothing in your life can improve as long as you hate change.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Soul Shine Specialist
Let your soul shine big, bright, live, and beautiful!

Permission to Know

This post might be a little different. I'm going to open up about some of my religious beliefs as I share with you an important tool in my toolbox. Permission to know is a powerful tool that allows me to get some clarity about truth. Be sure to read to the end for an important warning concerning this tool.

In my line of work, it is quite common for people to leave religious beliefs. The concept of being spiritual without religion is quite common, and many choose to leave religion. Just like a person can go to church every week and not actually be spiritual. For me, this means sometimes I question what I believe. I want to have a solid foundation in whatever I believe. I choose to be religious and spiritual.

A few years ago, I started questioning my beliefs in God. Was I making it all up? Is there really a separate all-knowing being or what? The thing I noticed was this desperate fear of letting go of everything I believed in. I knew in order to really know, I would have to be willing to let it go. I actually said, “I give myself permission for all of this God stuff to be a lie.” Energy moves and clears when we declare such things. Unlike many who give themselves this permission, I knew it wasn't enough.

It's too easy to give ourselves permission in one direction. Especially when some part of us thinks it could be easier. Think of all the rules I wouldn't have to follow if there was no God. After a couple of minutes, I made another declaration. “I give myself permission to know God is real.” Immediately my mind was reminded of miracles in my life, times when I could not deny God's hand in my life. My body was filled with lightness and love and I knew. I know God is real.

As time has passed, I have had other things to question. Things about church. Things about myself. I find that the experiences are similar. When I give myself permission in both directions, I allow myself to receive my truth. One side of the coin will come with light feelings and a sense of expansion. Sometimes you will have mixed energies on a subject. As you give yourself permission to know the truth, the false ideas will begin to dissipate. You will be left with the absolute truth when you are truly willing to know.

One way we can use this is with beliefs about ourselves. Say you feel unworthy. Declare, “I give myself permission to know I am unworthy.” Notice how that feels in your body. Does it bring you joy and expansive feelings or sorrow and contractive feelings? Now declare, “I give myself permission to know I am worthy.” Notice how this feels. You might even cry in joy and relief as your being begins to feel worthy. If you don't have clear answers, repeat the process until you actually know. 

Lies make energy contract. The lies we tell to ourselves. The lies we tell others. The lies they tell us. The lies that we have been raised with because no one knew better. Truth makes energy expand. Our truth. God's truth. Their truth. Expansive energy always leads to love, joy, and bliss. 

The reason this tool works is because of how we often either hold on so tight or push ideas so far away that we don't allow the truth in. When you hold on so tight to one idea, you don't allow any light to come in. Likewise, when you refuse to even entertain an idea, you can't let light in. Even the light you are trying to hold onto cannot fully come in when you hold so tight. When you give permission for both sides to be true, you let go of all the barriers and allow the truth to come in with all its glory.

WARNING! Sometimes when you give yourself permission on the first side of the coin, you will feel such a sense of relief as you let go of the tight controls. Do not mistake this for lightness and expansion. You must give yourself permission for both sides in order to really be able to compare both sides and receive the full truth. When you give permission to both sides, you get to a neutral place that allows all the truth to manifest. There may be bits of truth on both sides that can now be known.

Please let me know what happens when you try this. Did you resist trying this? Why or why not? I love to hear your feedback.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Life Facilitator

I'm inviting you to wake up and live!

Failure?

I am a failure and so are you. Before you freak out, let me explain.

Our entire life we have been fed expectations. How to look, how to dress, how to talk, what to think, who to like, how to serve, etc. For some of us, this has been extreme. There was a critical person in my life making the expectations more drastic and I know I'm not the only one.

I just watched the movie “Turning Red” and there was a line in it that was so triggering for me. I sobbed. The main character screamed at her mom, “I'm sorry; I'm not perfect like you.” That was so hard for me because even in the last year of my mom's life, I had screamed that same line at her. Every time I didn't do things the way she wanted, every time there was a critical slur thrown my way, I knew I didn't meet her expectations. I felt like a failure and like I would never measure up or be enough.

Here are some things to consider. She said those things because she felt them about herself. She too was striving to be perfect and spent her days with an inner critic saying awful things to herself. She too believed she was not enough and would never measure up.

More importantly, I could not ever live up to her expectations. That's the truth. I couldn't because number one, they were unrealistic expectations. Number two, I am a completely different person. I am motivated by different things. I have experienced different things. I see the world through different lenses. I would have to completely change me into her ideal version of herself in order to achieve her version of perfection. Her ideal wasn't even based on her soul's point of view, it was all the expectations she was fed.

Who told us what was perfect? Our parents, society, church, and even what we thought they implied but didn't say. How many of those ideas are based on the real you? on God's truth? Are they giving you guidelines based on your uniqueness in the world? Of course not.

Based on the fact that none of these ideas are taking into consideration the soul that is you, it is literally impossible to achieve this perfection. Therefore, we are all failures. YAY for that because do you really want to change yourself into some idea of perfect that has nothing to do with you? I don't want to succeed at their ideals. In this way, I want to be a failure.

It's important for us to redefine what failure means and even what perfection means. My new definition is: Failure is not meeting outside expectations. The reality is, when we get in tune with what our soul desires, we are so excited to be that way and do those things that we don't quit, we don't fail UNLESS we still have outside expectations getting in our way.

Who would you be without the expectations of the world, your family, etc? What would you do? 

Sometimes that's hard. We have been so busy trying to be what everyone wants, we forget who we are. For me, I ask God to give me insight into my truth. I also tune into those times when I do feel expansive, blissful, and at peace. I know that is the real me. If I were making decisions from that place, what would I decide?

The truth is, since failure is meeting outside expectations, I want to be a failure. I want to be ME. The beautiful, calm, peaceful me that is so full of love. From that space, how could I ever choose in a way that would harm me or those I love?

Some of you Obligers are freaking out. (See last week's post if you don't know what I mean.) I know you are wired to meet the expectations of others. Maybe a solution would be seeking God's True expectations, after all, if you believe in God do you really want to disappoint? Or, maybe it's about not letting down your soul. There is a solution for you to let go of the false ideas of perfection.

The next time you catch yourself thinking, “I am such a failure at _____,” look at what external expectations you aren't meeting. Who told you what being a good mom looks like? Who told you what being a good wife looks like? Who told you what being a good person looks like? As the song says, “Who said you're not perfect?” What would you choose if you listened to your soul?

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Life Facilitator

I'm inviting you to wake up and live!

Great Expectations

Today, I wanted to recommit to my work here on the blog. It sounds kind of crazy because you have probably heard that before. I have since learned some important things about myself to make my plan more likely to happen.

I have recently read the book  “Better Than Before” by Gretchen Rubin. I don't know if I have read her other book "The Four Tendencies” or if I have just learned some of the information about the tendencies. I only know that I have been familiar with some of the information in the book “Better Than Before”.

In “Better Than Before”, Gretchen said some things about the four tendencies that actually clicked with me in a whole new way. I am an Upholder, this I've known. This means that I respond to both internal expectations and external expectations. I can meet expectations from others like deadlines in a class or I can set my own. Obligers have a really hard time setting internal expectations for themselves, They do best to engage in groups or in other things in which other people are affected by their choices. A Questioner has to know the why behind everything that is expected of them. Some might choose to do it even if they don't agree with the why, they just need to know the why. Other Questioners will refuse to do what they don't agree with. Finally, there are the Rebels. They reject and avoid internal and external expectations. They have to use reverse psychology on themselves. One example was given to help with spending less, instead of creating a budget they were “avoiding” the marketing schemes. The results were spending less money but the way they did it was to give them something else to avoid.

As an Upholder, the thing that stood out to me this time was expectations, more specifically “clear expectations.” As I thought about it, when I gave myself clear deadlines like to post every Monday, I did so much better. Every time I have been successful at blogging, making YouTube videos, or whatever, it was when I had a clear expectation of myself. So, I have set some clear expectations, one might call them self-imposed rules.

The other thing I realized with myself is that I have to be careful about setting too many expectations. If I have too many, I will drop things off and they may be my most important things. For this reason, I have an idea of what I want to do each week and I'm careful to work on high priorities first. I look at each day and ask myself what I can clearly expect done knowing how I feel and what else is on the agenda.

I thought it interesting as I thought about art classes. In an art class or any class really, I would excel. I rarely do art when I am not in a class. At first, I thought maybe it was an Obliger thing. But I never did it to please the teacher. I now realize that an art class gives me an assignment, which is a clear expectation. Without the class, I don't really know what kind of project to work on.

When I wasn't working on a recent project, I realized that the problem was I didn't have a clear understanding of what was needed. Taking a moment to talk to the client and get some clarity was what it took to get me moving. Along with this, if I feel like I might do it wrong, I also won't move forward. I need to know what I expect of myself and what the client expects then I can easily do the work.

There are other dichotomies mentioned in “Better Than Before”. Do you like new experiences or familiar ones? Do you like starting or finishing? Are you a night owl, or an early bird? Etc. Each one of these is helpful. I don't like finishing things; I love starting things. I can use this strategy in my crochet and knitting work. As I get to the part of the project I don't love, I can push through by reminding myself that as soon as this one gets done, I can start a new one. I'm working with my desire to start things.

Why am I sharing so much about myself? You might not be an Upholder, in fact, it's likely you aren't. What you can take away is the idea that knowing things about yourself allows you to work with and around your tendencies. 

If you are an Obliger, you can build in accountability and people that care. Maybe self-care is hard for you, so you join a class or you engage a friend to make sure you are doing what you need for yourself. Your natural instinct will kick in so you don't disappoint them. This isn't a wrong thing, don't beat yourself up for not doing it for yourself. It's just not the way you are wired. We need people like you in the world. Instead of beating yourself up, recognize the beauty of you and work with your nature.

A Questioner would need to understand the why of taking care of themselves and then set rules for themselves. An Upholder tends to be more instinctual about not overdoing it and setting rules in place for themselves. A Rebel might need to look at what they are avoiding. “They say I'll run myself to the ground, well I'll show them,” and then they take time for themselves just to prove “they” wrong. Whatever works for you to get the job done is perfect.

I'm grateful for all of you. Your unique gifts to the world. You are designed the way you are for a reason. Whether this came from early wounding or just the way you have always been doesn't matter. What matters is understanding yourself and then using that info to create a beautiful life by working with your nature not against it. I believe in you.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Life Facilitator

I'm inviting you to wake up and live!

Entities, Demons, and Displaced Spirits

Lately, I have been interested in entity clearings. For a while now, I have been in denial about the subject. On some level, I knew they were around, I'd even cleared them before but for whatever reason, probably an entity, I didn't want to do anything about it. Let's talk about three kinds of entities, keep in mind there could be more.

Demons

I think demons are a pretty straightforward concept. They are deceptive and dark. I really think the reason we have demons in our existence is because we came to a world of opposition. We must have extreme darkness as opposition to extreme light. In my experience, they only have power when we allow them to. Sometimes it's a subconscious power we give them. 

One time, there was a sound that woke my son and me up in the middle of the night. I now think it may have been a bucket of Legos falling to the floor.  At the time, we had no idea what it was, and my son and I were quite disturbed. I went into near terror. I decided to follow the fear to the source and clear the fears from my early childhood. As soon as the fear was clear and I was calm, I heard a couple of spirits begin to swear, using words I can't stand and never even think. I sent them away and I was at peace again.

I tell this story because those demons got super angry because I cleared their source of power. Without my fear for them to feed off and use to their advantage, they had no power. I don't know if it is always fear. Sometimes it is a belief that they have more power than they do. I think any extreme emotion they can play with. No matter what, they are pretty simple to get rid of, even from other people. The problem with clearing from other people is you can't clear their deep fears and beliefs without permission so they might call darkness back in. 

Displaced Spirits

Displaced spirits are beings that had a body at one time. They are now hanging around, some know they are dead and some don't. These are spirits that have not returned to the light. Some are really good people that choose to stay around acting as guides. The challenge with this is they still have all of their paradigms from living in their body. It is much better to send them to the light and let them know we would love to have them back after they go.

If they die with drugs and alcohol in their system, they are still in the haze that those drugs create. This is really easy to release if you know to do it. If my main clearing technique doesn't work, then I release the energy of drugs and alcohol. After that's cleared 99% of the time, the main clearing will work.

Some spirits don't know there is a light to go to. Their life experience didn't teach them that there was somewhere they could go after they died. Some don't feel worthy to go to the light. Some feel like they have unfinished business. As I mentioned, some don't even know they are dead. I ask a few questions, sometimes bring in angels of light, and soon they are on their way to the light.

Entities

Entities are a harder subject to understand for some. I like to compare it to a business entity. Although a business doesn't have a body it kind of has a life of its own. It has its own purpose and vision. An entity in the world of energy can be a belief, paradigm, or something else that takes on a life of its own. Often we talk of the “spirit of contention” in my church. Many people assume it is a demon but in reality, it is an energy that is so common that it takes on a life of its own  Any kind of energy can become an entity through repetition or strong emotions.

Sometimes, you may hear of energy that is left behind in a home. I have heard of people gaining weight because they lived in the home of someone with a weight issue. This energy is energy that was left in the home and sometimes that energy can actually be an entity.

I think it is important to know that these kinds of influences exist. Lately, I have been clearing these kinds of things from my spirit guides and those of family and clients. Ideally, all of our guides will be angels of light. We don't want displaced spirits with their limiting paradigms guiding us. They mean well but don't see the big picture any better than we do, often guiding us from their own fears. I have been amazed at the difference in my own life as I have cleared my own spirit guides.

I have found entities, demons, and displaced spirits in homes, attached to and/or in people. I have found them within injuries, trapped in a certain paradigm, etc. If there is an area that is out of whack in your life, one thing we want to do is clear away these kinds of energy. This will then leave us able to look at the truth and make a permanent change. For instance, I found demons hanging out in my money paradigms. That is definitely not a place I want that kind of energy. Since clearing that, I have noticed a change in attitude towards money and even a desire to put effort into my healing work.

This is work that I am doing on a donation basis. It's something I can do with you through text, email, or we can set up a video conference (a required base donation for video). If you would like to work with me, please feel to reach out through email soulmagicalmichele@gmail.com or FB messenger http://fb.me/msg/MicheleLewisBusiness.

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Life Facilitator

I'm inviting you to wake up and live!

Feng Shui in the Kitchen

One of the things I love about our homes is the insight they give us into our inner world. I guarantee in some way you are completely aligned with your living situation. I know, sometimes that really sucks to hear and it doesn't always make sense.

The great news is, there are things we can do about it! For today, let's look at Feng Shui. It is just one tool I use to discover what is going on in my home, and therefore my life. Today, we're going to look at our kitchens. 

There are two ways a Feng Shui Bagua (also known as a map) can be used. We're going to look at both of them to get the most information we can. One uses the compass directions and the other uses the entrance wall of your home or room. The Bagua is commonly divided into 9 sections. You take a birdseye view of your home or room and divide it into equal sections. There are fixes you can make if your home or room isn't a square or rectangle. If you need help, reach out (soulmagicalmichele@gmail.com) and I'll see if I can help, or your can find a certified Feng Shui consultant. 

Let's take the map and place it over the entire home. We'll use the compass method first. You'll get a compass and find north. This is where the entrance side of the Bagua map needs to be placed. So the Career section will be on the north-facing side of your home. Most of us will find this pretty simple as most homes face a compass direction. Take note of what zone or zones your kitchen lands in. 

If your home does not face North, you can also place the map where your front entrance is. Line up the door wall with the entrance or career side of the map. I would suggest if you always use a door other than the front as your main entrance, use that door instead because that is the direction the energy most often enters your home. Again, take note of what zone or zones your kitchen lands in.

With this information in hand, take a minute to notice what your kitchen is like compared to the sections on the map. For instance, my kitchen is mostly located in the knowledge, with some career and a little ancestors when the compass is placed on it. When I place the map over my home entrance, I get the majority of the room in the wealth section with a bit in reputation and ancestors. What connection can I see?

My kitchen is a place where all the family cooks, eats, and doesn't do their chores without major effort on my side. It still has a lot that reminds me of my mom's way. I also have some major deep cleaning to do. My personal development often seems to be about how others view me and honestly, it takes me great effort to take time to read. Something interesting is the career section covers a cupboard that I just started deep cleaning and since doing that work, I have felt a need to get moving on my career again. Like my kitchen that I can't seem to keep clean, my money seems to constantly be a mess. What connections can you see in your kitchen?

Now let's move to the room itself. We can take that same map and put it over the room. We align the entrance side of the map with the wall our door is on. Now, notice what is going on in your kitchen. 

That cupboard I mentioned, it's in the wealth corner. That's exciting. I found as I approached cleaning that cupboard, I was avoiding doing it for many reasons and the deep hidden reason was I didn't want to feel the anger and resentment I associated with it. I have a lot of anger and resentment where money is concerned as well. My relationship corner is another disaster area that needs a deep cleaning. Is it a wonder that I have struggled with relationships and money? Or did my struggle create the mess in my home? Probably a bit of both.

The amazing thing is, you can change things in your home and create inner changes thereby changing your alignment. You can also change your inner world, which causes you to make outer changes. I have one area where I did some inner changes and now I can't stand it getting cluttered so I keep it clean. My alignment changed. When you intentionally create change in both the inner world and change things in your home everything is easier. You're clearing your home and more importantly, you're changing all the things that prevent you from being you.

I want to see you shine and have a home that reflects the essence of you!

Michele

Soul Shine Specialist

Wake up and live!

Capable

Today, I spent time with my mom. She's been gone for just over 18 months. Yes, I miss her. What isn't always talked about is the relief that sometimes comes with death. I had a lot more relief than I care to admit and a lot more than most people knew.

Today, I was healing. I wrote a list of some of the ways she criticized me and the messages I received from both what she said and how she treated me. I didn't care about getting everything out. I went with the few things that came. I plan to repeat the process a few times.

I remembered when we were moving. My mom sent me to bed. She let my brother stay up to help her pack. I remember feeling a little hurt but I had no clue the depth of pain I held in that memory. I received a big message, “You are not capable. You require more sleep than Steven.”

I have been looking for where the energy that taught me that I am not capable came from. I couldn't find it. I didn't know where to look. I think it's because I tend to look for one big event but this one was line upon line. The line when I was little told me I was too young to clean the toilet. This huge thing when I was twelve. A few other messages along the way. All add up and eventually, I just “know” that I am not capable and I get illnesses that prove that belief right.

I had a friend tell me that my words about work told him that I was believing that I wasn't worthy of money or that I was only worthy to be poor. He meant well, and I could definitely see why he thought that. I want to share with you that sometimes it isn't about worth, even when you think it is. I knew I was worthy of money and that I was worthy and deserve to have money. I didn't believe I was capable. All the worth in the world won't change your life if you don't believe you are capable.

If you have been working on self-love, self-worth, and other similar things and you aren't seeing changes in your life, consider that there is another word in the way. For me, it was capable. For you, it could be something else. 

If you want some assistance on this, reach out. It doesn't have to be to me, but I am here for you if you need it. I just want to see you shine, no matter how you get there. I know you are worthy, beautiful, and I even know you are capable! And so am I!

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Soul Shine Specialist

Wake up and live!

Voices

It has been so long since I have written. I sometimes wonder why. Why do I not do the things I claim to love?

There is vulnerability in writing. There is vulnerability in letting my point of view into the world. Of allowing people to read the thoughts in my heart. That is a pretty scary thing to do. 

The thoughts come flying in, sometimes I don't even know they are there but they are. Little voices in my head,. Little hidden voices, “What if they don't like you? What if they criticize your writing? What if you offend someone with your point of view? What if the (insert name of person or organization) read what you write and don't like what they read? What if you find out in a year or two that everything you wrote was wrong?” Do you have these voices too? Maybe your voices say different things but I imagine they all feel the same. 

Where do they come from? What purpose do they serve? Do they serve a purpose?

The voices are a part of our ego. An ego that is designed to keep you safe. Your ego cherishes you. It loves life and wants to live. All these thoughts are programmed to keep us safe.

That sounds like quite a stretch some days, doesn't it? There is no way that these fears and even negative self-talk telling us we are stupid or ugly or whatever could be protecting us. That's just a silly thought. What if it were true?

If you believe you are ugly, then you won't step into the light and then you won't get hurt. "Success," says the little thought. "I am keeping you safe here in the shadows." If you think you are stupid, you won't share your voice. If you are not heard, you cannot be rejected. "You will live and won't be hurt," thinks the little voice. "Success." On goes the thoughts in our head. On they go protecting us.

These little thoughts found their birth early in our life. In the very earliest days. One of my favorite things is finding where these little voices began and sending so much unconditional love and truth that they must release. Then the other voices can speak up. The voice that says, “You are so beautiful. Let yourself be seen. You are so smart. If you speak up, then you will fill the mind of another and together you will be lifted.” 

Imagine living a life where the little voices in your head realized that to truly live, you get to do those vulnerable things. That's where the living really happens. Safety is in reaching out.

Thank you so much for reading. Until next time,

Michele

Intuitive Healer & Soul Shine Specialist

Simplifying My Kitchen

I am kind of in an in-between place. A type of limbo if you will. On the one hand, I am still highly aware of and intentionally looking at what happens in the home in order to assist healing. On the other hand, I am unlocking some incredible gifts with sound. I know they somehow work together but that is where the limbo lies. I am just not sure how yet. Because I am kind of in a bit of an unknown area, I'll talk about what I have done with the kitchen dishes. I let so many dishes go. 

When I was a little girl, my dad would say he wished we each just had one cup, one bowl, one plate, etc. That idea stuck in my mind but I didn't act on it. I had often thought as a young parent that it was a good idea but I wasn't willing to even try. 

I came across a YouTuber that has done that. She has one dish set for each member of her family. She started with a quarantine box, she had the term before the 2020 drama. It's a box that you put the dishes you don't think you will need. It's kind of the safety net before you actually get rid of things. The chance to see if you like it or if you will miss certain items and pull them out.

We got rid of so many dishes. Normally, I wouldn't have considered them clutter, although I did think we had too many of some things. I just was raised with having an abundance of dishes. 

I am choosing to look at my kitchen as always having what we need. Not too much, not too little, just what is perfect for us. I kept extra dishes on the top shelf as I have grandkids that occasionally come over. It's a bit crazy to see so few things in our cupboards and yet it is so nice.

I noticed I had some anxiety at first. This was weird for me because I have been decluttering for so long that I find it easy to let go. I realized that I was anxious because I had let my mind choose what to keep not my heart. I didn't joy test the dishes. I looked through the boxes, pulled out a couple of things, and the anxiety left. Now they have been donated, so there is no going back.

Here is what amazes me. It is impossible to get behind. Even if we don't wash dishes before bed, there are only a handful that have to be washed before the next dinner. They can't go more than that because there aren't enough plates. It's been so nice having so few dishes to wash. I can quickly tidy up and it's heaven.

I don't know if it's the right decision for everyone. I say if you have any curiosity, pull out a box for quarantining. Start with your eating dishes. Pull everything out and keep only one plate per person, one bowl, one cup, and see what happens for a few days when each person only has one set of dishes. If you find it liberating like I do, then move onto another area. Do you need all of your pans? What about the mixing bowls? Do you have too many storage containers for your needs? How about spatulas, whisks, and other cooking utensils.

As you simplify your dishes, how does this affect your sense of self? How does it affect other areas of the home? What do the dishes represent for you? For me, they seem to represent my overwhelm level and I can say, my dishes no longer overwhelm me.

Maybe this isn't right for you and so you decide to take all of the dishes back out of the quarantine box. It's okay. It will all turn out perfectly. Amazing sometimes to believe but it really will all work out.

Lots of love,

Michele

Thank you 2020, Welcome 2021!

The new year is upon us! I have had so much fun with time over the last year. Sometimes I would forget and the month would be gone before I knew it. Other times, I would stretch time out to be exactly what I needed. 

I know a lot of people were stuck in weird time loops where they felt like the same week or month was repeating. Some people felt like March lasted for 9 months. Many people couldn't wait for the year to pass. It was interesting to observe how so many people approached the year in different ways.

One thing I became aware of was how important it was to focus on the present. I didn't focus on the good or bad of the year. I focused on what was necessary for the moment. Many moments were filled with tears. Many more moments were filled with laughter. I allowed my tears to flow and when they were done, I moved into the next moment feeling better.

I don't think 2021 is going to be a magic pill that fixes what 2020 left. I personally don't like how a year was blamed for all the “bad things” that happened. It was just a year and it brought some interesting experiences. Did 2020 kill my mom? No, she died of things out of our control that had nothing to do with the pandemic. Life and death happen and it happened in my year. On April 20th my mom died. On May 25th my grandson was born.

I think 2021 will be exactly what we make of it. It's a blank canvas that will likely have some more political upheaval, world craziness, and more. That's okay. It's what you choose to do with each of your moments that matter. It's your point of view about life that matters. 

What would it take to be present in this moment? What would it take to realize that for this moment you have everything you need? What would it take for you to know that you will be given exactly what you need for the next moment and every moment after? 

Imagine you are in that space of knowing. The present space where everything is provided. From this space, what do you want to experience in 2021? What if you already had that? For a moment, just breathe in that experience.

I wish upon you an incredible year. I hope you remember to be present with yourself, with your family, and with the desires of your heart. 

You got this!

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

What Could Have Been

I have been watching a British show called Obsessive Compulsive Cleaners. I found it on YouTube. The basis of the show is taking volunteers who are OCD with an emphasis on cleaning whether for germs, order, or both. These volunteers then go into a hoarder's home, usually not been cleaned in years. They get 4 days to get the house as clean as possible. It's been fascinating to watch.

I have a bit of OCD myself. Not the cleaning one but I can be a bit obsessive about some things in my home. I get kind of stuck on things and find it really hard to feel at peace with things. I don't quite know how to explain it. Mostly my OCD comes in the form of Scrupulosity which is a moral or religious OCD in which I have to live just right.

For this reason, I can really relate to some of what the OCD people are feeling. Not completely but I at least know that it is a compulsion they have little if any control over.

I have also experienced depression to the point of letting my whole house go. Feeling so overwhelmed by the stuff that I have no clue where to start. I have never been to a hoarder level but before I learned to declutter, I had quite a bit of stuff that overwhelmed me. I still have a lot of areas I haven't been able to get to for various reasons.

For this reason, I can really relate to the hoarders too. I know there are a lot of reasons for hoarding and not cleaning. I know that it's a spectrum and all of the people on that show are to one extreme or the other. They all have some deep wounds somewhere in their psyche.

Tonight as I watched, I started crying. Right now, I am coming to the end of my first challenge. The challenges are a month long and I do 11 healing sessions for all of the group members. I give tips when I can and I love the group for the accountability it provides to me. It's really hard to let it slide when I feel like I have all my group members counting on me to set an example. You can learn about it and join the next one here. I accept new members through the 10th of each month.

Back to why I was crying. My mom has been gone for six months. There are a lot of feelings all around. I have been cleaning out her room this month. I have taken over ten large trash bags of garbage out of that room, and I'm not really done. We have lived here for 10 years and although she made attempts at cleaning, she never really cleaned it the whole time. She was a hoarder. Not to the extent of many of those people on TV but she was a hoarder.

As I watched the show tonight, I kept thinking, “Why didn't I help her? Why didn't I offer to spend a day here and there going through the stuff with her? Why did I allow her to get so bad?”

As I was thinking, I had the thought, “For the same reason you couldn't tell her you loved her until a month before she passed.” I sigh.

There is a healing tool that I used in March with my mom. It is as simple as saying a sentence and believing it works. “I clear and transmute all of the impediments of beingness I have for my mom. I clear and transmute all of the impediments of beingness my mom has for me. I clear and transmute all of the impediments of beingness between my mom and me.”

What happens is somewhere back in time, trapped energy collected in one or both of us that was like what some people call a broadcast message. It's like there was a wall or sign that prevented certain behavior. Like she held up a sign to me that says, “You must treat me this way,” and I had to treat her that way. Maybe I was holding a sign in front of my own eyes that says, “Mom is like this so I must behave like that.” It doesn't matter which one of us has the energy or what they really said. It was the fact that they existed that was the challenge.

For years, I tried and tried to tell my mom I loved her. I could tell all of my children, every guy I dated, and even some other relatives that I loved them. When it came to my mom, I couldn't do it. It drove me crazy and I was constantly trying to figure it out.

When I did the clearing statements, I didn't do it thinking about the love situation. I just wanted to clear the energy away so I could be me, the real me, with my mom. It was a pleasant surprise that I was able to say “I love you” as I desired to. My mom was surprised too! It took her a moment and then she replied in like. After that, I found it quite easy to tell her that I loved her. 

I had to do another clearing statement when she said, “I love you too.” I would think, “No, you don't,” or, “Yeah, right.” So, I used the clearing statement, “That's an interesting point of view. I have that point of view.” I got that and the concept for the impediment work from Access Consciousness. They have some good tools and some not as great tools. :)

I was so grateful as my mom entered the hospital to have all those thoughts cleared up. I could tell her of my love and hear her reply and know that it was all true. I kept wishing I would have known sooner because the last month of her life was so sweet with that barrier gone.

I don't know what all thoughts were between my mom, me, and the clutter. Some about me thinking her unwilling to hear me or let me help. Some about her own beliefs that she could never get it done. Who knows what all was there.

Now, here I am. Making headway in her former room. Working bit by bit to declutter the whole house of all the garbage she left. I seek for and find the hidden treasures of her love. We let a lot go to the thrift store and a whole lot to the dump. Eventually, the only things left will be the reminders of love that spark incredible joy.

I can't let myself get caught up in the what could have beens. They weren't. Things are what they are. I can only go forward and send compassion to the past. We all did the best we knew how at the time.

My wish for you is to send compassion and forgiveness to the past. Clear away the limiting thoughts and energy from the now. Move forward with more love and joy than ever!

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Lessons from the October Challenge

I want to give you a bit of an update on what I have been doing. I started a “challenge” so that I can motivate myself and encourage others at the same time. It's been a lot of fun doing healing sessions for the group and I have made huge progress in my mom's room. Leading others is a great way for me to push myself to do what I need to do.

What have I learned in the last few weeks as I have been doing this?

I discovered that I need to stop referring to the room as my mom's room or grandma's room. She no longer lives in that room. I found a new name for that room that inspires me to get in there. My kids know what I am talking about when I call it the Meadow. Its full name is Michele's Magical Meadow.

I realized I need to stop calling the stuff my mom's stuff. It isn't hers anymore. She left it behind. It's kind of my inheritance. Now, I really didn't want to inherit a bunch of garbage to sort through hoping to find the occasional treasure. At the same time, when I claim it as mine, it makes it easier for me to toss things, donate things, etc like I have trained myself to take care of my own stuff.

Another thing is, although she left all that stuff, I don't actually have to go through it. I could send it to my brother. I could give it to my kids and tell them to go through it. I could toss it all, forget any possible treasure. Realizing this actually makes it easier for me to go through it because now it is a choice. I am excited to find the treasures within the garbage.

I have also discovered that when I get stuck, I can treat myself like a client. This happened today. I went in to clean in the Meadow. I got to a point where my next step is to clean off the bed. The bed wasn't a mess when my mom passed. It's stuff I've piled on as I have gone through other things. Mostly things I haven't known what to do with. Basically, I created a big "box" of stuff for me to go through, only it isn't a box.

I froze. I couldn't really do anything.

I decided to ask myself, “What would I tell my client in this situation?” Wow, that was fascinating. I would ask her to look at what area of her life that pile represented. I discovered it was the overwhelming grief I have been experiencing. I then asked, “How much of that is yours?” My answer was none. I became aware that it was grief my mom left behind, the grief she felt as she knew she was leaving me a mess, grief from the dog, the kids, etc. Some could have even been inherited. I was a bit surprised, but not really. I have been feeling and healing as much as I could when it comes up. I was frustrated it wasn't going away. I finally asked for it to be cleared.

I haven't been able to go back into the room because of timing priorities but I have had ideas about how to deal with the mess. I wasn't getting those ideas before so if nothing else, I was able to get past a stuck place.

Another interesting thing to note about this challenge. I have been having the most awesome experiences after each session. The one on Wednesday was about careers. I'm writing this on Thursday and I had some really awesome things show up in my awareness that I could use for my career. I don't know if I am taking it but it's so cool that it showed up the day after I did the healing! If nothing else, it might open me to some more clarity as I move forward.

The whole thing has been really exciting and I am only halfway through the month! Who knows what else this month will bring!

Big hugs my friends,

Michele

Intuitive Healer & Coach

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Settling

The real secret to life is settling. Settle into who you are. 

The reason a tool like manifesting recordings work is because they take you to a place of settledness. It takes you to a place where you are being you. 

You have programmed yourself to know the truth of who you are. You took your conscious desires and put them into words and then you programmed your own brain with your own words. As you listen, it becomes more and more you. The resistance you have departs and you settle into your beingness.

The secret to manifesting is being with what you want. It isn't about feelings. It isn't about coming from a certain chakra. It is about being what you want. Already having it because you have become one with it. You have allowed it, received it, and assimilated it into your subconscious.

You have programmed yourself and removed the obstacles by convincing your brain that this is what you are. Then the beingness takes over. That is why it is easy to do some things that you have created.

Some visions come faster some take longer. It isn't about gestation, not really. It is about resistance. The more you resist, the longer it takes to reprogram you brain. The less resistance the faster it comes because you have become one with what you want. 

The real pros know this. They have become one with what they want. They are what they want. They have allowed what they want to settle into their experiences. They be.

What will you be?

With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Embracing the Feelings

Woohoo, two weeks in a row. I must be on a roll!

I am nervoucited. I am teaching my first HomeVision course this week. It’s a 3-week class starting on Thursday, Aug 27. (I would love to see you there)

I know that the information is powerful. I know that the people who have used the information I am teaching have had some pretty profound results. I know I am an expert in this field. For those reasons, I am excited.

Then comes the doubt which makes me nervous. Do you do that? Do you doubt your gifts and expertise? What if no one comes? What if they don’t like me? What if they think it was a waste of their money, even though it is only $27? All of the what-ifs come in. I know we all do this to some degree or another.

Usually, or at least in the past, when the what-if would come, I would try to avoid it. Maybe I would even try to release it. I might find success and I might not.

One of the reasons it is not successful is because I am approaching it from a place of resistance. What we resist persists. I’m fighting the beliefs and fears. Because I am fighting them and wanting to change them out of fear, they persist.

There is a fun little trick that takes the wind right out of their sails. Embrace them, love them.

To embrace them, we start by acknowledging them. “I have this fear. I am afraid of looking like a fool.” Once I have acknowledged what it is, it has already lost a piece of its power. It is no longer hidden. 

Then we say “I am embracing this. I feel this. In fact, I want to feel it bigger than this. I grow this fear. I really feel into this fear.” That takes out so much more power. We are no longer resisting. We are moving into it. We are becoming one with it. All it wants is to be felt and known. 

After that comes the magic step. “I love this. I love this fear of looking like a fool.” We repeat the steps. Acknowledge beliefs and feelings. Embrace them. Grow them. Love them. 

After a while, you won’t even be able to find the feelings anymore. The power of love just takes them completely away. We didn’t resist, it doesn’t persist.

One key is to approach this as a resting opportunity, not a changing opportunity. Sometimes things don’t completely change. The circumstances may not. My mother will always be dead but the feelings can go, they can change, I can be at peace.

The point of embracing is not to change. It is to come to a place of peace. I don’t go into my feelings wanting them to go away. When I do, they take longer to release. I need to go in with the intent to be at peace. Listen to my feelings and thoughts, love them for what they are, and allow myself to be peace. The fact that feelings usually leave is a bonus.

I hope you found this extra helpful.

If you want to be a part of the HomeVision program, here is the link. There are going to be replays so even if you can’t make it to the live classes, that’s ok.

Lots of love,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

I'm Back :)

It has been a while. I have gotten pretty off track and then I went through some fascinating adventures.

Let’s start with some big ones that are really affecting my life and what is important to me.

In the midst of this pandemic that has everyone obsessed, I lost my mom. She had cancer that we didn’t know about until two weeks before she passed. It was devastating in many ways. At the same time, I was surprised that in many ways it was a relief.

To understand, you must understand that my mom was wounded. She was a hurt woman who was not living the life she was designed to live. It was obvious to me that she was suffering in many ways. I never knew what to do for her and I was trapped in some stinking thinking as well.

I lived with my mom. This meant that most of the house was not in my control. The house was hers, even though we rented. It was her choice to live here. It was her dishes we were using; her furniture and things like that. This place was hers which meant that I didn’t do much around the house. I felt resentful that my stuff was packed away for years I felt powerless and out of sorts.

When she passed, it was time for me to claim this all as my own. I had to begin the process of creating order and sorting out what was what. I still have a long way to go. I find it hard to go through her stuff because there is so much. She was pretty much a hoarder.

The other thing that happened was back in November, I broke my knee. This left me on the couch for three months until surgery. The 7 months since surgery has been a slow process of healing. I still limp pretty bad and I am still very limited on what I can do. It is a real challenge and with the extra work put on me, it has been hard.

I have used this time to learn so much about myself. I have allowed myself to heal. I have allowed myself to feel awful for a while. Sometimes I even allowed myself to avoid the feelings for a while. That was a hard lesson.

I learned that although it is important to feel your feelings, there is a reason we stuff them. There is a reason we avoid them. Sometimes when a big thing or two happens it is too much and we must use the coping methods to avoid the feelings for a while. When we are strong, we can come back. The real problem with stuffing feelings is that most people don’t come back. Most people avoid them for so long until they come out as illness or something similar.

I have been addressing a few feelings here and there. Some are really big and some are smaller. Some are still on the shelf for a while. It has only been about three months since my mom passed. There is still a long way to go and that’s ok.

I am grateful for the process. I am grateful for my tools. When I get stuck, I know how to use my home and other tools to get me unstuck and that’s pretty awesome.

I hope that your life is going well. I hope that you are allowing yourself to put things on a shelf when needed and then remembering to take them out and feel them when you are stronger. I hope that you are feeling and healing. If you ever need some help with any part of the process, reach out. I’ll be happy to help in whatever way I can.

Big hugs,

Michele

Intuitive Healer

Healing homes and the Soul's who love them.

Deep, Deep Feelings Stirred

I cannot return to the Love language series just yet. I feel a call to write about what was blocking me from continuing. My two strongest love languages are gifts and touch. These languages were coming up to talk about. I couldn't write about them because I was having some severe issues with God. I didn't really know it.

Recently, I had someone guide me through a healing process about my fear of falling. I am sure you can imagine as I am recovering from a fall last November, that this fear was interfering with my healing progress. For this first time, it became imperative that I heal this fear.

We started by talking about the memories that I had with falling. Recent or past. I listed a bunch and we started. This process took me to heal the first surgery I had. Even though I am sure that no one dropped me when I had tubes put in my ears at 18 months, I had that sensation. There were other memories and feelings of anger to deal with. Then I was taken to a memory I hadn't listed.

When I was twelve, I had tied a jump rope to a gate and proceeded to swing on it. The rope broke and I fell on my tailbone. The bruised tailbone was so excruciatingly painful. The doctors made it worse by forcing me to sit on it. I seriously can't think of a more painful experience.

This experience had so much emotion in it. I was sobbing and I had no clue it was there all along. I didn't know the feelings toward myself were there. I didn't know my feelings towards doctors were there. I didn't know my feelings toward God were there. So many feelings. So much betrayal by God for allowing it to happen.

It isn't hard to see that when I fell last November, these hidden feelings were triggered. It wasn't just the fear of going to doctors that were triggered, but I definitely felt that fear, especially that they would want me to do things that would hurt it more. I went to each appointment with apprehension. It was also that hidden anger and betrayal associated with God. Those hidden feelings were brought to the surface. I had no clue they were there, and yet they were affecting my whole life. It's why it was so hard to believe His promises even after I addressed the beliefs about promises kept.

As the remaining layers get healed, I find myself forgiving and trusting God again. I have found myself wanting to clear out all of the muck in the way of my connection with him. I have been asking Him to remove the resistance and open my heart. My daughter was surprised by this story. Her experience of me didn't allow for the idea that I could be so angry at God. I, myself was surprised at how much there was.

How much energy do you have buried deep? Maybe it doesn't affect your relationship with God. Maybe it doesn't make you afraid of doctors. Maybe it is keeping you single. Maybe it is keeping you sick. It's just this intense energy that you buried. Remember, I didn't even list that memory as one associated with falling. That's how deep it was buried. I remembered the experience but I didn't remember with any emotions because I had buried them so deep. Yet, there was always a heaviness with the memory.

Right now, a lot of deep feelings are being stirred in people. We want to get them out because even if we can't remember them, they are affecting us. They bring down our overall vibrations, they prevent us from receiving all we need. Sometimes we don't even need to know what they are, we just need to clear the energy. Sometimes you need to go into them to see how they connect. You will be led to the right tools for the situation. I trust that.

I'm here for you. Send me a message and we'll talk about what I can do for you as a friend or a healer. If money keeps you from talking to people, please don't allow that. I can do a lot for you for free or trades. I want to see you release these deep feelings so you can experience a life of peace, joy love, affluence, etc.


With love from my heart to yours,

Michele

Intuitive Healee